im sick of trying to be nice to people and then just get screwed over. Its like people just love to push you to your wicks end, or push your button. I'm tired of it. They pretend to be your friends and then just talk shit about you behind your back. They dont like it when its done to them but they can sure as hell do it to you. I used to be this cold ass bitch who hated almost everyone but then i decided that i was time to change it took me a while to do this because people werent used to it. and now that they are used to me being so nice and a push over...they take advantage of it and they have learned all the ways to piss me off. A person can only take so much. Im getting ready to just explode on everyone that has ever pissed me off. I dont care if the consequences means nobody will like me if i do this. or if it disrupts some actual friendships. im sick of it. to them it may mean just one less friend but to me its everything. i just want people to know that i mean business. im only 17 and if people keep doing this i will crack. i always wonder why people commit suicide. its because people torture them into the thought. and it takes a strong willed person to do something like this. and when people torture the right person. they will either commit suicide or homicide. i dont want to be an angry person all the time but damn. people are so stupid and hateful. stuck up and just ugh. i try to be this nice but strong person and people are like throwing bombs at my wall of security that i have tried for several years to build up. ever since my dad left and me and mom fight all the time. i try to just block things out which makes me end up doing stupid stuff and then people hurt me and i can only take so much. i cant do this stupid shit anymore. but thank god im moving. and i wont have to see their stupid faces anymore