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| Did he want to kill me for the 21st time? |
I make people beautiful.
I work for a small photography studio and I am their graphic designer and photo retouch artist. I peer into other people's accomplishments: weddings, pregnancies, newborns, little ones, graduations and other beautifully composed, beautifully lit, beautifully taken shots. My job is to take the digital photo in its raw form and polish it - mold it into a thing of beauty. I show the love inside their friends and families and place it on the outside. I remove society's judgmental flaws: wrinkles, moles, pox marks, scars, scabs, acne, discoloration - you name it. I can even remove people who aren't supposed to be there (or wanted there). I step into their lives and make them perfect.
I love my job. In fact, I go to work to relax.
2 or 3 days ago:
My husband and I spoke frankly and openly about his condition, which happens to be a psychotic diagnosis. It was under the condition that the session only last 1 hour and I was allowed to ask any questions I wanted answered.
I asked about his past and other small stuff, then I asked him if he loved me: yes. I asked, 'what is the worst thought you've ever had?' and he said, 'killing you.' I asked, 'how often do you think about killing me?' He said, "about 18 to 20 times in our relationship."
How does one comprehend that?
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Posted by psychotic on 2009-04-15 00:24:21 | Rating: | Views: 128
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