Hey, i guess the reason I decided to blog...was because I have always had troubles in my life and always wanted a way to vent them. I really dont know what to say in a blog because I have never blogged before. I have seen blogs before and they sound so soffisticated but ii dont really care just as long as I have a way to say what i want when I want.
Anyway, all through today my mom was acting like she does when I tell her the truth about herself that she doesnt want to realize. My mother is obsessed with the computer, when she isnt home she's at work but as soon as she gets home...she gets strait on the computer and talks to a man that she seems to know oh so well. Parents always tell you to be careful on the internet, to watch where you go and who you talk to and  dont talk to. But what about them...? Did they ever realize that they could think they know alot about the person that THEY have met online, or in a chatroom, or even on a silly game but really they could know nothing about them...? And sometimes the people that they claim to know or love turn out to be some whole different person and then they may decide to meet or even marry and then they would really get the big picture. My mom walked around the house all day, with the saddest look of lonlyness and hurt and even depression on her face. She blamed it on life. At the moment we reallly arent doing well, and not just in finances. Ny mother disgusts me at times the way she lives life, the way she makes me have to live my life, and the things that she has chosen and is choosing to do in her life as well....Im only just a kid, i still have school, grades, homework, and MY future to look into...its scary. To not have a mother who is  emotionally, or physically involved in my life...i know she cares and I know she tries but its just not enough. I think thats why I turned out to be such a bad kid. Over the pst ive learned to stay in the shadows but still be in the light enought to let people notice me but only some people got to know who I really am,, but the thing is...I dont KNOW who I really am. I go from one thing to the next from being a perfect angel for daddy to a messed up kid with seriouse problems with mom things have never really seemed to get any better...and Im beginning to believe they never will.
live life the best way that you can, dont give up when things are going wrong try to tough it out and stay strong...
fo rthe both of us.