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I'm a junior in college. We are finishing up the semester. In fact, it's pretty much over. I have two papers due and a final exam, then school will be out for the winter break.
I've made some decisions that have affected my school work in getting assignments in on time. I still have managed to get them in, but very late.
I met a boy not too long ago and he makes me feel great but I am not allowing myself to open up to him. He has opened himself up to me but I'm scared. Why do I feel so skeptical about all of this?
He is so different than everything I've ever known. He is outspoken, romantic, wild & crazy, passionate, and all over the place. He is 29 and working on his PhD, says he has never felt this way about anyone... but I feel like maybe he is just speaking how he feels "in the moment" but does not "think" about what he is saying and how it might make me feel at this point in my life. Am I looking too deep? Should I stop?
I like him, enjoy his company, like the way he makes me feel, but something is missing. I don't feel completely happy. I remember what it felt like to be completely happy a long time ago in my last relationship and then it fell apart.
I want to feel happy with him. Is it just too ealry? Should I date other people? Latley I've been feeling down. Sad.
I want to laugh so hard that I start to cry. I want to throw my hands in the air and jump and just feel free of any problems. I want to compliment someone and see them smile.
I cut my bangs yesterday. Short. I don't like it. But it grows back. I wanted a change and got it. Ugh.
So let me get this straight, right now I am going through:
- finals and end of the semester bull-shit
- liking a boy but afraid to open up my heart to him
- feeling sad and incomplete and yearning for some laughter in my life
- cut my hair for a change and feel gross now
I guess I'll start by laughing at all of this crap right now.
AAAAAAAGGGGGGGHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
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Posted by priscillawest on 2007-12-01 15:21:54 | Rating: | Views: 71
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Your hair will grow back. Do your work take one task at a time, don't look at the whole break it down and get the sections complete.
Get that sorted first then use the winter break to think about what you want, there is no need to rush and over analize. Take things slowly live for the moment and see what happens.If he dosn't respect that then you need to anaylise if that is who you want to be with.
Take care and keep safe
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Posted by jessforgets
on 2007-12-01 16:05:12
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I'm finishing off the last weeks of the semester too. It does get hectic.
I've been rejected nine times. It was all my fault. Don't feel bad about yourself.
I cut my hair too. I shaved it all off. It was a mistake because I was just trying to shorten it but while shaving, I accidentally placed the clippers on my head and there was this bald spot. I had to shave it all off after that. Now I don't have to worry about making my hair look tidy because I don't have a lot of it :)
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Posted by SubTomato
on 2007-12-01 16:48:54
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I appreciate it. Both comments make me feel better.
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Posted by priscillawest
on 2007-12-04 14:38:01
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