I am new at this blog thing, So I guess I'll start today's by answering a comment I received on my last blog. Thanks for leaving a comment, I was surprised, because I really never expected someone to reply to my everyday rantings. You asked if I was suck in a rut, in a way I am, but not really. I am taking two years off school, against my will, I was sort of forced into it. My plan was med school, but I didn't do well on my first mcat so I didn't get in, understandable. I was going to retake the test this year, but when I went to register to take the test, all the seats were full, I should have registered earlier but I really did not expect that to happen. Now I have to wait until next year. I also applied to go to university to upgrade my degree, but I didn't get into the program, something about not have the right program requirements. So in my last desperation I applied to another university that was still accepting applications for Non-degree students. This chain of events is what's holding me back from med school, which basically add up to time. I have to wait.
Today I realized something. I am not a very social person. I like to hang out and have fun just as the next person, but I think, I rather be alone. Today, my cousin called me. She never calls me. We hung out last week, went to the amusement park. It was fun, I was tired, but I enjoyed it. Well she called, said she was bored, we talked a little, but I know she wanted to do something. In reality, I was doing nothing. I was at home, I cleaned my room. I could have done something with her, even just had her over to hang out. But no. I played it off, didn't bring up the idea and when she said she was bored, offered up the idea of her studying or something. Then later on today, another one of my cousins came over with her dad. My moms good at the entertaining bit , but the phone rang, and it was her brother calling from long distance. So she left me and my cousin and uncle in the room. I couldn't think of anything to say, nothing. I was just hoping for my my mom to get of the phone so she start some conversation of something. It was so awkward. But the gist is that I didn't was to talk to anybody, I just want to be alone,  but of course if went and locked up in my room that would be rude, but sitting there saying nothing isn't that polite either.