Am I goin mad.

This is the body of me

I must be going mad.
I must be one in a million who suffers the way i do.
from panic attacks to anxiety, to depression, to paranoia, to unusual thoughts. all the elements of madness.
Will there ever be an end to it, i dont think so only when im in my box will i have peace but i cant do that its selfish i have children.
Im in a state what can i do, how can i do it.