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I just got home from the 27 Dresses party. I had an awesome time! Everyone showed up in full dress some complete with 80's style bridesmaid dresses, updo's green eye shadow and all. I had all sorts of cute details. There were party favors filled with jordan almonds and hershey's kisses, bubbles and pink printed napkins. The cake even had pink icing. I of couse wore a pink bridesmaid dress. People decided it would be cute to pin money on me so I even had a few bow looking dollar bills all over. We had a movie poster on the sliding glass door and streamers that read Bride to Be. We also played the movie and a few girls watched for a bit. I will post pictures soon.
On to my usual subject:
So Brian said he would stay over tonight to be here early to go get the moving truck. It's 2 am and I have not heard from him today. Yesterday was a rough day. I called him when I was leaving work to ask him about dinner. He was distant again and when I asked him why, he said that on Wednesday when I was sad and clingy he really got turned off. He said he loves spending time with me but he doesn't want to have to call me every day or be here for me when I'm sad. Then he followed it up by saying, I'm ok with going to where we were 5 weeks ago. I replied not speaking? He said no just no commitment. I got upset and we left things at he would help me move but we would not continue to see each other. Last night, he showed up and apologized and said he did want to see me, he hoped I was not hurt. He just didn't want to be there on the one day in over a month that I was sad. He likes spending time with me when I am happy. He then said he would be here tonight. It's after 2 am and he's not here and he hasn't called.
I debated on calling him but the truth is, he knows what he said he would do and I can't make him do it plus I don't want someone who does not want me or want to love all of me. He only wants to love me when I am happy around him. That's great so by letting him in this way he gets to enjoy my company, have sex with me but not have to be there when I'm upset. Who wouldn't like that arrangement. Uggh, it just infuriates me.
My friends at the party were cute, they were making fun and saying they needed to do an intervention. That if I didn't take their advice and stop seeing him they would stop getting dressed up and coming to my crazy parties. I have a really good group of friends. We started at 7 and 6 of us stayed and chatted until a few minutes ago.
For some reason, I'm nervous about being by myself at the new place. It kind of freaks me out to sleep there by myself. I don't get it, I've been really excited about the place but I think all of the windows bug me or something. I'm probably being a little paranoid.
So I don't know if I will have internet until Monday so it may be a few days until I can post an update.
Update: I just spoke to Brian and he's on his way here. I hope things go well today. I'm relieved he's going to help since this was his idea to move me and not have to use movers. I have packed every room and taken all of my clothes over already. I haven't started moving and I am exhausted already. Thank God I have tomorrow off!
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Posted by prelude2it on 2008-07-13 02:14:36 | Rating: | Views: 83
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I'm glad you had fun at the 27 dresses party! I've had similar parties before, they're always a blast. Can't wait to see the pictures :) (like everyone else :P).
Hmmm, Brian doesn't seem to want to be in for the commitment at all.. Commitment usually means sticking with you through good and bad, and from what I've read it doesn't seem like he's willing to stick with you through some of the bad.. Then again, I don't know you well so pardon if I'm wrong :)
I'm glad your friends look out for you, that's more than I can say for my friends!
Good luck with moving, glad Brian's gonna lend a hand :)
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Posted by Mezlie
on 2008-07-13 09:02:30
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Glad you had a blast at the party! Cant wait to see the pics!
Brian. Well, I have to say at this point, have you ever heard of fair weather friend? When all is good they are there, when theres rocky moments they arent.
My ex-daughter in law is going thru similar right now.
Hugs to you.
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Posted by 1221dol0306
on 2008-07-13 09:14:57
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"he doesn't want to have to call me every day or be here for me when I'm sad." This is unacceptable. You deserve someone that WANTS to be the person you go to when you are sad. I know it is hard for men to see women they care about upset, especially when they can't really actively do anything to "fix" the problem, but it's unfair for him to just "disappear" on the rare day when you are feeling blue. :(
feelin for you girl!! good luck with the move.
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Posted by TheAlreadyJaded
on 2008-07-13 12:43:38
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Until now, I have given Brian the benefit of the doubt, but to be honest, he seems incredibly immature and, I hate to say it, selfish. Not to mention wishy washy. He needs to shit or get off the pot. Perhaps I read this blog at the wrong moment, but I am seething on your behalf.
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Posted by Meredith
on 2008-07-13 17:16:01
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I agree with Meri, I've been thinking its worth it to give him a chance since you are both willing to work on it, but right at this moment (and I'm sorry) I HATE THAT GUY. What the hell does he mean by he doesnt want to have to call you everyday or be there when you're sad??!!! I'm so mad at him right now!!
Dont do this to yourself, Prelude...I'm sorry if im intruding, but this guy is not worth your time if he says stuff like this. He cant use you this way...you deserve to be loved and held when you're sad.
Dont hurt yourself any more...he doesnt deserve you..
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-07-14 01:40:35
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I haven't read your other blogs (yet) so I don't know the whole story; however, after reading what Brian said to you I have to agree with everyone else....you deserve someone who loves ALL of you...the good, the bad, and the ugly. He should want to be with you no matter what your mood. And especially when you are upset because they want to help you through it to get you back to your happy self.
On a lighter note....that party sounded like a lot of fun! I loved that movie!
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Posted by nakedtruth
on 2008-07-15 00:50:03
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Like Meredith -- I'm seething on your behalf after reading this. What concerns me most is what kind of a future are you going to have with a man who only wants to be there when you are having a good day. Would he be a good life partner? .... or father to your children? You are such an amazing and beautiful girl. Don't waste your best years waiting and hoping that Brian will change into the person you need and want him to be.
On a lighter note the party sounded so fun ... can't wait to see the pictures. Good luck with the move. I'm sure after a little adjustment period you will feel safe and enjoy living in your new home. Will say a prayer that you feel the presence of God's angels. Peace.
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Posted by ColoradoDreamin
on 2008-07-15 10:56:17
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Prelude....you deserve to be with someone who loves you, and everything about you, all the "bits and pieces" that make you the lovely person that you are. *HUGS* to you :)
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Posted by Kaybee
on 2008-07-16 21:45:51
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