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Lessons Learned on 2008-04-30 23:08:08 |
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I have a few of those experiences where I have learned from the outcome. I guess as long as you grow from it then it was worth it.
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The story on 2008-04-30 16:55:50 |
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You have had a very hard life. I try to live by Life is what you make it although that still makes me sad at times.
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That girl.... on 2008-04-30 16:46:57 |
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Wow that was beautiful!
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What I want to say . . . on 2008-04-30 16:42:36 |
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Thank you both!! I needed it. Both of your posts put a smile on my face.
I'll let you know how the book goes.
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What Makes Us Faithful? on 2008-04-30 15:31:10 |
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That was beautiful. I think it's what all of us want to find.
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For those who are wondering... on 2008-04-30 15:21:14 |
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I've done waxing a few times and it hurts!!! Thankfully it's over quickly and lasts a few weeks. Good luck with the Hernia.
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Blah Blah Blah boo on 2008-04-30 15:12:40 |
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Sounds like things are going well. Congrats.
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Bully gets Blu TACKED! on 2008-04-30 15:10:16 |
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Miss 8 is a tough cookie. I like Meri would love to see pics of them too.
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There will be no more Tiffanie posts on 2008-04-30 14:18:33 |
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I'm glad you were able to write this. Give yourself time to heal. I have learned time really does heal all wounds.
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this is for easytosay on 2008-04-30 14:16:10 |
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That was really nice of you!
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Christmas in May on 2008-04-30 14:02:01 |
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Yikes!! This is a really tough one. As a wife, I would want you to want to return them because it would show me that the relationship is over with and you are focusing on the wife. You would have to do this because you want to not because you were told to.
I understand your perspective, you love KP and you want to have your gifts. This is where I should keep my mouth shut but what I want to know is why are you staying with your wife if you know someone else has your heart?
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2 DAYS AND COUNTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! on 2008-04-30 13:56:13 |
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I hope things went well with Craig in Tampa.
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Cutting the apron strings on 2008-04-30 13:52:54 |
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Glad your friend is doing better. Rememeber you can lead a horse to water but you can;t make it drink.
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wickedly awesome day! on 2008-04-30 13:49:57 |
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I noticed that the cat little cleaning is wocked awesome. I bet that part was not wicked awesome. :) Have a good day.
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What do you mean you don't need quarters? on 2008-04-30 13:36:32 |
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Hope she feels better. Happy hump day to you too!
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Friends & Their Dilemmas on 2008-04-30 12:05:09 |
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Meredith - Thanks, I have learned negativity is contagious and I've distanced myself before.
EasyToSay - I've read about HWG in your posts and I think that's who you are referring to. I just hopes she gets over the sadness.
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The Angel Pat on 2008-04-30 11:36:48 |
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I agree with Easy, only give her the info she needs. She doesn't need to know the arrangements specially if you have you the basement, which is your own space. Good luck and I hope everything works out!
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Ghetto Girl on 2008-04-30 09:52:37 |
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I hope your little girl has a good day. I know what it's like to get picked on, I did until about 5th grade and it sucked!
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Wild hairs and dog dishes on 2008-04-30 09:48:49 |
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You are going to be very busy for the next two weeks! Have fun at Heidi's and I would change hairdressers too. The style sounds cute, my friend Jen does the dark brown on the bottom layers and then really light on the top layer and it works for her. Send some pics when you're done.
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My readers on 2008-04-30 00:03:16 |
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I write for myself but also because I have come to enjoy the people here. I want to share my life with others. I did not not consider strangers were reading things but I realize they could. I think you should consider what you want the purpose of your blog to be and go from there. I too wonder who reads my posts sometimes when the numbers get high. Anyway, keep writing, I enjoy hearing about your life.
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Waddya mean you don't wanna be my friend?! on 2008-04-29 22:10:18 |
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Hi Ellie, I think you already know this but I think you are great. I can't believe someone would not want to be your friend.
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TO COMMENT OR NOT TO COMMENT ! THAT IS THE QUESTIO on 2008-04-29 19:14:41 |
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I think the comments are important. I see the number of views and wonder who is reading my blogs. I have tried to comment a lot more lately too. Good luck! I really enjoy your posts by the way.
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And so it starts... on 2008-04-29 18:57:57 |
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It sounds like you miss college. I'm glad I went through it though so in the end it will all be worth it.
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What Would Your Super-Power Be? on 2008-04-29 17:29:04 |
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That was great. My super power would be to read people's minds!
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A Thoughts.Com Party on 2008-04-29 17:27:31 |
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Ha Ha Ha! That was great. I love it!
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The Goodness of People on 2008-04-29 17:24:54 |
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I agree, everything happens for a reason. That's what I was thinking as I read your post. Check it out and see how you feel about it.
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Nightmares, Disinterest, and Dirty Underwear on 2008-04-29 17:05:51 |
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That's very funny about the undies. Not everyone is honest, some people just lead you to believe they are pretty well. I have learned that the hard way. I use to think the answer was finding someone who had strong beliefs but the problem is how do you know they are telling you the truth? I think the answer is seeing how they are with their family. I know my current and past relationship both had relationships with their family/mothers that were not as close as I would be with my family. Maybe that is how you tell.
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Tuesday night ... Funk Night on 2008-04-29 13:08:55 |
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Wow, you handled that really well. I think she will understand at some point. That had to be pretty hard on you. You are a really good mom!
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Going for the record on 2008-04-29 12:58:59 |
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I hate the dentist. I have not been since I moved here, almost 3 years ago. Good luck!!
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Tuesday ... loop hole?? on 2008-04-29 12:52:23 |
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Good for you. I relate to you and the sleeping together afterwards for the same reason. I would put the August date. =P
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Pigeons & Crumbs on 2008-04-29 12:20:35 |
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I like the wind up penises idea, good one Blue. I like the quote.
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Forgiveness?? on 2008-04-29 12:02:29 |
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I believe you never know someone. I started believing that at the end with R. I completely trusted him and he not only cheated but was not man enough to tell me the whole story. It was a shock to me.
I know how people can lure you in, have you believe in them and then drop you. I know how much that hurts but it's a fault he has within himself. He can't be alone and face himself, he has to keep looking for a replacement when the real problem is him.
I understand not trusting someone, I still have trouble and as I have said Brian is honest to a fault but I am not the same as I would have been a few years ago. I think it's normal, trust has to be earned. I try to believe that there are good people out there and that helps me move forward sometimes. I'm sorry, that he turned out to be such a jerk, you deserve to get what you put in and therefore a lot better than him.
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Yesterday's Meltdown on 2008-04-28 23:06:55 |
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Blue,
I love Shelby very much, I just get weird when I'm sad. Shelby was R's and now adores Brian. She hears his truck or mustang and gets so excited. I know it's crazy but I just have a hard time when she's needy and I'm sad. It's strange I know, when it's her and I, I'm completely different, I even want her to sleep with me which I use to be anti dogs in bed. Please don't get me wrong, I do love my dog. I could not ask for a better one.
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Flirting on 2008-04-28 22:59:48 |
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I think flirting without hurting anyone is ok. Sometimes it can go too far, specially if you are with your partner but most times, it's great. I agree with Meredith on the dreams.
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Heaven Sent on 2008-04-28 22:57:20 |
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I am really happy for you. Congratulations!!
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The Most Beautiful Person I Know on 2008-04-28 22:51:37 |
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Thank you for sharing, that is an awesome story. I'll take a look at the pics.
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Say Goodnight on 2008-04-28 22:34:40 |
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That was really sweet.
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MONDAY ... fun-day on 2008-04-28 19:38:33 |
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I don't know that I would accept a joint request although, I know I wanted the divorce enough at one point that I paid to get end it. Take your time, there's no hurry in signing the papers. I would not want to give them any pleasures based on you.
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Had enough of the idiots on 2008-04-28 19:06:16 |
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Sounds like a real winner. At least your contact is short term.
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I will be strong on 2008-04-28 19:03:02 |
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That was a very good way to convey your love message.
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Yesterday's Meltdown on 2008-04-28 18:59:55 |
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I think I give up on initiating sex. I never had to in any past relationships and it makes me feel like CRAP when I'm turned down.
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Snow…On April 28th?!... on 2008-04-28 18:56:29 |
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I cannot even imagine snow. I live in FL where it's almost 80 today. I think everyone should just move here :)
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New Toy on 2008-04-28 16:58:27 |
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I should clarify that the cute pj's were just a pink top with blue cropped pj pants that had little pink hearts all over.
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New Toy on 2008-04-28 16:57:28 |
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Nope Meredith, I did not sleep with Mr Roper amuzingly enough but I was the community slut because I did not wear a mumu. My cute pj's made me too sexy to be anything else. I loved it and even did a southern accent. :)
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Broadzilla HAS one of those??? on 2008-04-28 15:17:09 |
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I hate to hear what you are going through, I know you don't deserve it. I'm glad that you oldest is on your side and the little one, it's hard she lives with her mom and Mr. Clean every day, I think she's just getting manipulated.Sorry that you are going through all this, you deserve the world.
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Weekend Wrapup on 2008-04-28 15:09:58 |
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I agree with Blue. My dad was my world and I would say don't give up and she will come around. I just caught up on this weekend's post, as always I enjoy reading how you adore your kids. Broadzilla is very immature because she does not see how much children need their father.
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WHEN SATAN CALLED ME I SAID WHAT?? on 2008-04-28 14:15:56 |
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Karen - You ROCK! You are such a strong person. I'm proud of you.
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More of the same, and some bonus material on 2008-04-28 12:17:21 |
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I love your lines. I wish I had it in me to stay stuff like that. I think it but I usually can't voice it.
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What's it gonna take? on 2008-04-28 12:15:38 |
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I agree with Meri. Dark Chocolate works best for me.
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Costa Rica - Pura Vida! on 2008-04-28 12:14:16 |
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I have to say that I LOVE avocados and plantains as well. I can't believe you did the canopy tour, I wanted to do that in the Virgin Islands but no one in my group would try it and I didn't want to do it alone and leave everyone behind. Reading your story on the rope, makes me not want to bungee jump. Glad you had fun. I missed reading your posts.
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Costa Rica - Pura Vida! on 2008-04-28 11:50:58 |
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I'm so glad you are back!
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Shorty is a killa on 2008-04-26 12:27:51 |
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I'm glad to see you are back. I have always enjoyed reading your posts. I know you are going through something but I'm glad this new person is there for you. I look forward to your posts.
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My World on 2008-04-26 12:24:24 |
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This is so beautiful. I can relate to it.
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No title on 2008-04-26 12:23:21 |
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Have a good weekend.
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Some Thoughts on Friends on Thoughts on 2008-04-26 12:20:27 |
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Easy - I think you are great. I love reading your posts and learning about you. I do think you, Meri, blue and I could be friends in real life. I relate to your posts a lot. You get all of me in my posts which may not always be a good thing. Hey I followed in our your sex week but I got a negative comment - Oh well!
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Life with Father V on 2008-04-25 14:15:53 |
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That was an awesome post. I was raised catholic but now do not believe in organized religion. I go to church every once in a while but I have not felt that connection in a long time. I too have a soft spot that I wish I didn't.
Thank you for all of your kind words and your support.
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chain chain chain! on 2008-04-25 12:32:50 |
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That was a good analogy and very true!
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SPOUSE WANTS ME BACK...... on 2008-04-25 12:30:01 |
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You will get there. Sometimes it does feel like the other person has the better life. I Know I have thought, why does he get to have somoene that loves him? why does he get to have a family when I don't? I believe that in the long run we will look back and see the answers.
Blue is right, there is something very empowering when you realize you made it on your own. You have come this far and I believe you will keep going. You are very strong.
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Guilt and Paranoia on 2008-04-25 12:19:42 |
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I would be the same with Brad, he screwed your mom! I don't think I could speak to him much after that without blurting something out. You are doing what I would do too.
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she called, I died anew on 2008-04-25 09:11:18 |
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I have been there. I sometimes use to turn my phone off and just use it to call people when I didn't want to recieve a call because I knew it would set me off again.
You write really well and for me expressing myself helps.
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This Time Last Year on 2008-04-25 09:06:39 |
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You have come a long way. I read your post and I can relate to what you were feeling at that time. I know it makes me feel good to know that I don't need him now and that I am at a better place in my life. You are too. Stay strong for you and your children.
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Back to the Basics on 2008-04-25 08:59:41 |
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That sucks. Sorry you are going through this. Hopefully things will work out with the new job. I wish you the best of luck, you're a good guy and things have to work out for you.
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Chasing Wabbits on 2008-04-25 08:54:45 |
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I have both of you feel better and that you have a good weekend.
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Been here before? on 2008-04-25 08:52:44 |
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cool post.
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Updates - Yes, I'm Back :) on 2008-04-25 08:48:45 |
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Glad that things are working out for you. Good luck with BF, as long as you are both willing to make things work then it should.
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The Holistic & Spiritual Approach to Life on 2008-04-24 23:33:56 |
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That was awesome. They were very in tune with nature and themselves. My dad would always tell me to listen to my inner voice I have learned that when I go against it, bad things happen. Thanks for the post, I enjoyed it.
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Susan on 2008-04-24 23:26:45 |
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I enjoy your post, glad you found someone new.
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Mother,jugs and speed on 2008-04-24 23:16:35 |
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I hope everyone's ok. Funny post.
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Let's Talk about Sex .. baby! on 2008-04-24 23:13:14 |
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Congratulations. I'm really happy for you. On to sex - maybe I will blog about it tomorrow :)
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One Time One Time Only on 2008-04-24 23:09:51 |
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Wow. I am so happy for both of you. I think both of you are great! I wish you both the best!
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Do we know each other? Strange, I can't recall on 2008-04-24 22:59:37 |
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I think we can replace the pain with other things. Maybe this is an example, I no longer miss Ronald or wish him harm but it's because my focus is Brian, so I've replaced one with the other, I guess although there was some time in between the two. I think we do have the capability of retraining ourselves but I don't know to what capacity.
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Finding Balance on 2008-04-24 22:51:46 |
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That's very true about Brian, he never makes plans and I do. If I had not made plans tonight I would have missed out on a good time since it turned out he had to work out of town.
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Is Romantic Love Really So Rare? on 2008-04-24 16:54:30 |
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I do think it's rare. I had that in the past and it was beautiful, we were both crazy about each other and got all of the same comments. After 8 years together we were still crazy about each other but life changes us I guess.
Sometimes people are different, in my current relationship when I'm happy I want to tell the world. My boyfriend is not as expressive and it's hard to be me. I guess every relationship is different but I still feel those moments of wow and I still seem him and think he's gorgeous. Even though he's not as expressive when I asked him to tell me what love was he said knowing that the person who gives you that special feeling inside when you see them across the room is by your side. Some people just are not as expressive but I think they still feel it.
Wow I really rambled. I love your posts.
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ramblings of a pregnant woman on 2008-04-24 16:49:24 |
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This a sweet post. YOu sounds very in love and it's beautiful.
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The Mistress has her say, on 2008-04-24 16:30:54 |
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As you know, I struggle with infidelity because it hurts the one that is being cheated on A LOT. I have followed your story loosely and I have usually been very supportive.
It's hard because in one of WK's posts, he seemed to have told his wife and she was supportive and tried to make the situation better. When I read it, I thought he was going back because you were not going to be there. That bothered me because I felt like, he loved you very much so how could he go back to someone that he so clearly did not have a connection with. It's not my place to judge, but it's hard when you know how much that can hurt and it becomes easy to relate to her.
Usually she reminds me of my relationship and I relate to WK quite a bit and I'm happy you have found each other. It just hits a soft spot at times.
As always I wish you both the best.
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Decleration of Independance on 2008-04-24 12:42:08 |
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Good for you! I hope you accomplish your goals.
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it still hurts to breathe on 2008-04-24 12:40:15 |
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I have learned that you feel things less with time and that is why time heels wounds. My best friend use to say that the only way to get over someone was to start seeing someone new. After you have heeled some, the new person will help you forget the last one.
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Could I whine any more than I am???? on 2008-04-24 12:27:08 |
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I have struggled with faith a lot and I still do. I believe there is a God and a plan but it's hard to have faith when you don't see that what you want is happening for you.
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Happy Birthday Pa, we will always be connected on 2008-04-24 09:49:53 |
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Sweet post. Wishing your dad a happy belated bday.
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Occum's Razor on 2008-04-24 09:13:47 |
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"All things considered equal, the person with no expectations is never disappointed." I agree but if you have no expectations, what do you have in life. We have expectations about everything.
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Nothing and everything on 2008-04-23 15:13:30 |
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I think we have to take comments at their value. I have developed some friendships here and those comments would have more weight for me than a strangers. I like the Eleanor Roosevelt quote above and completely agree.
Maybe something is in the air because I usually sleep pretty well and lately I've been seeing wierd accidents or bugs in my dreams.
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A Message To All The Haters… on 2008-04-23 15:09:07 |
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Good Post. I agree.
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Whole Again on 2008-04-23 15:07:08 |
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I love it, does this mean you have met someone special?
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My Father - Part 2 on 2008-04-23 15:05:28 |
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I want to thank everyone for all of the comments. My dad was a wonderful father and a good man.
As you can tell, I still miss him sometimes and it's been almost 15 years since he passed away.
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Suicide on 2008-04-23 13:15:45 |
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I think you have some maturing to do. Read a little on psychology and work on growing and understanding others. People that say they are going to kill themselves may be seeking attention but you never know what there life is like or how much sadness they truly feel. They may need support and this may be where they get it.
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I HATE Tiger Woods on 2008-04-23 13:12:08 |
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A little jealous? Why don't you try to play golf and see how you do?
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Lyric Rhythm on 2008-04-23 11:06:57 |
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I think it's great that you are going back to school. What will you be studying? I sometimes feel that way like I know what's going to happen in a movie, like there's no real challenge. Interesting post.
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He Did What!?! Suprise Court Date on 2008-04-23 09:45:09 |
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Glad this worked out for you. Sounds ike a big win.
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Return of the Mack on 2008-04-23 09:41:01 |
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Guys like to play a wierd game when they first start seeing you. I think being distant would give you the upper hand and he would eventually come back. Sounds like an awesome weekend, hope he keeps it up.
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Morning Funk on 2008-04-23 08:51:39 |
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Good luck with the interview. I hope you get it. It sounds like a good opportunity!
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My obscene OBSESSION on 2008-04-23 08:46:08 |
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That sounds yummy. It made me wonder if we can get them here. We can get some things at specialty stores, I'll have to keep my eye out for it.
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The tears he doesn't see... on 2008-04-23 08:43:49 |
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Wow, he just does not get the importance of children and what you as a parent can do to them. They are lucky to have a strong, wonderful mother.
I wonder what FOTY's uprbringing was like? What would his parents say about his parenting?
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I think I'll take the stray dog on 2008-04-22 23:29:27 |
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I feel like I do the same thing with men. You know the story so I won't say anymore.
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Bitch-Up on 2008-04-22 23:22:35 |
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As you already know, I'm happy you are back!
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Exodus on 2008-04-22 08:53:48 |
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Yep, I don't know what is up with people leaving.
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What I Will Not Read... on 2008-04-22 08:51:26 |
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I agree with you, because of how may marriage ended, I get pissed off when I read certain posts. I believe in Karma and what you do to someone else will come back to you.
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POETS OF THOUGHTS.COM on 2008-04-21 22:52:59 |
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I like the book idea. I believe that person is out there for everybody.
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And the Award Goes To.... on 2008-04-21 22:48:50 |
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I don't get her, she should put her kids first. I like POTY, good one easy.
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Peace Out on 2008-04-21 22:44:13 |
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What happened? i read your posts almost every day. I hope you change your mind and return. It seems everyone is leaving or thinking of leaving.
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Hope Springs Eternal or Does It? on 2008-04-21 20:36:05 |
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That was good. Are you a part of meetups? I think they can be great. I believe in hoping but working towards your goals.
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Purging the past. on 2008-04-21 20:33:14 |
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I think the person that left did not want to keep the possibility of just coming back and checking in. I try to keep some things from the past but not much. Very good post.
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The Kinder shuffle ... and the frustrations on 2008-04-21 20:19:17 |
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This has to be frustrating for you, I hope your friend figures it out and continues to watch him.
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FOTY oh so considerate.... or is he!? on 2008-04-21 20:15:07 |
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I agree with Caring Advise. I married a man who was married when I met him. He told me his marriage was in shambles and he had left her many times but in the end after 10 years, he did the same thing to me when we had what I thought was a wonderful relationship.
I know life is not fair but I'm glad he's at least paying the bill. In my case R did not want a divorce, even after cheating and I had to pay to get rid of him. Yep, pay him to get him to give me a divorce.
You have beautiful children that will grow up to adore you and see what you did for them. I wish you the best.
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My So Called Life...Chapter 1 on 2008-04-21 17:04:40 |
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Thanks for sharing your story, I kept reading it today.
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My So Called Life...Chapter 4 on 2008-04-21 17:02:28 |
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You have gone through a lot! I feel for you and your relationship with your father. It made me think of my dad.
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Just one more day on 2008-04-21 14:26:08 |
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I would want one more day with my father. I would want the knowledge I have now but would want that day when he was alive and I was 16, don't know if that makes sense.
I would also want one day with my real mom. I never met her and I wish I could know what she was like.
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Who is responsible? on 2008-04-21 14:23:35 |
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We are each responsible for our own happiness. With that being said, it has only been a week and it may take your wife some time to heal. To be betrayed for years is a major to her heart and she can't heal over night. She needs time to mourn. It's a loss to be let down by the one that you love.
If you want to be there, then there will be hard times but things will get better if you BOTH want them to. You have to truly want it and it seems like you don't. It seems like your mind is made up that she cannot make you happy.
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Dear Dad on 2008-04-21 10:00:11 |
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I hope everything works out with him. I'm sorry he causes you pain.
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True Love on 2008-04-18 19:04:37 |
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I have to say that you may have the wrong mattress topper. I have one that I got on overstock.com and I love it!! I keep the A/C at 72 day and night because I can't stand to sweat either. anyway. I'm so glad it's Friday!
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Dear Meri: Please lock me. From, your Diary on 2008-04-18 16:47:27 |
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Enjoy your trip. I hope you come back. I enjoy reading your blogs.
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I just can’t be bothered on 2008-04-18 09:37:15 |
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We all have days like that. Maybe you just need to read your book and get a little bit of a break.
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Bye-Bye Blue on 2008-04-18 09:35:05 |
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I know, I was shocked. I read her blog every day. Hopefully we will keep in contact outside of thoughts. I hope everything is ok with her.
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I can't wait to get out of work today . . . on 2008-04-17 16:39:48 |
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Thanks for the comments. Jen is kind of stubborn and she says she's not going to not sleep at home and then be uncomfortable. Lately, I'm pretty laid back and say oh well, her loss although I feel bad that she has to drive.
Fancie - Good look with Craig. It sounds like he's trying to work things out.
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Forgot to take my happy pills today on 2008-04-17 09:24:21 |
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All those things would irritate me too!
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Dear Diary, Consume My Frustrations on 2008-04-17 09:21:53 |
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It sounds like you are in a different kind of mood today. I think you always seem to be very in love with your husband, when you write it pours through. I hope all is well with you.
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Diamond Memories on 2008-04-17 09:16:18 |
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I loved baseball as a kid and I can relate!
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Aidan vs. Mr. Big (Camera Guy vs. Brian) on 2008-04-16 23:10:18 |
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You know what is right for you and you are sticking to it. In real life would Mr. Big be able to give Carrie what she needs or would he be to busy with his blackberry to pay her his full attention? =P
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Thanks on 2008-04-16 11:26:49 |
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I'm glad to see you will continue to blog. I look at your posts almost daily. I wish you the best in getting your relationship back.
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Bubbly on 2008-04-16 10:41:01 |
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Congrats on the guy and good luck. I checked out playlist.com too last night. It's pretty neat.
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Elevator on 2008-04-15 22:39:45 |
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Your job sounds like it sucks. I can't believe they are writing you up when you just had surgery.
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Wash that man right out of my hair on 2008-04-15 15:55:45 |
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I started thinking of the first couple of years with Brian and at the beginning I focused on us and i had zero contact with my ex (R). Then when I made contact with R, I could see all of these flaws in Bri. It was like he was not the same person in my eyes, I think because I was missing R. At the same time my feelings for Bri got very blurred. After Bri and I took our 6 week break, I decided no more contact with R and I have kept that about 98%, except for a couple of BS emails a few months ago. I feel like I think about Brian exclusively and I have finally let R go. If I had not done that I don't know that I would have ever given Bri all of me. I think the same thing of you and your Brian, if you start comparing Camera Guy to Brian at some point you may not see some of the qualities you like in Brian in Camera Guy. Therefore not giving him a fair chance. I believe our hearts can only truly love one person at a time. I understand struggling to let go, it's why I'm still seeing my Brian, although he's being great lately. I think when we truly love someone, we keep the hope that they will see that we are great too and do something. Unfortunately that doesn't always happen.
Just keep in mind, that Camera Guy thinks you are great and right now should get your full focus. Every time I read your posts about Brian, I realize you want what Brian could be which is what I want in my Brian. Keep that in mind.
If you are ever in Tampa, we should go to a game to see our lovely Rays. The stadium is a/c'd which is awesome and the fans are fun.
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Wash that man right out of my hair on 2008-04-15 13:57:52 |
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I hate to say this but unless you let go of Brian you may never give CameraGuy 100%. I have to run to a meeting but I'll write more later. Have fun, the Rays will definitely loose tonight. They suck!
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FOTY drops the ball again on 2008-04-15 11:20:12 |
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Meredith said it best: FOTY sucks! Can you bring Taco bell home and hopefully have the best of both worlds?
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Unemployed in Wisconsin on 2008-04-15 10:58:22 |
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That took a lot of courage. I had a boss like that once. It's the only time I cried at work. Good luck with your job search.
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Love and Acceptance on 2008-04-15 09:47:27 |
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Figure out who it is that will make you happy or if it's being by yourself until you figure it out. Good luck.
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What I'd like to blog about! on 2008-04-15 09:41:39 |
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That was cute. I hope you meet him soon!
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My Moral Dilemma on 2008-04-15 09:33:52 |
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That's a tough one. He sounds like a jerk. If it were a close friend I would tell her but if it's more of an acquaintance then probably not because you are right, she may not believe you. See what happens and then decide. Good luck.
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WHEN LIFE BLOWS.........FUKITOL on 2008-04-14 22:42:15 |
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That was cute. You should check out despair.com
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End/begining or begining/end on 2008-04-14 22:38:01 |
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This must be very hard on you. My perspective is from your wife's side, I guess. If you are going to try with your marriage, try completely. Let go of KP, no emails, no contact. Nothing. Tell yourself that you want your marriage to work, otherwise you are just using your wife to hold you over until KP comes back. I'm sorry and I hope that I am not hurtful. You seemed very sure your wife was not the one but when KP is not there, then you go back. I say if you want your wife then want her completely. You seem very confused with what you wrote, I know you love both of them but I do believe we can only truly love one person at a time. Listen to your heart.
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Days go by... on 2008-04-14 21:45:11 |
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Sounds like things are going well for you. Enjoy the new place!
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Surrogacy? on 2008-04-14 21:43:19 |
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I would say think about it thoroughly. I don't think I could give up a baby that I carried. I think it's awesome that people do this. Good luck.
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Quick update on 2008-04-14 21:33:43 |
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Good to hear things are going well. Good luck.
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A new Web site I like and belong to... on 2008-04-14 21:31:47 |
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I visited your site. It's pretty neat. Hope everything is well with you.
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Master 4 turns 5 .... 12 months on on 2008-04-14 17:30:30 |
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Congrats on his birthday. You are such a strong person.
I bet he will love his bike. I'm glad FOTY is going to dinner with his family. It would be wierd if JS were there. Good luck with staying strong tonight!
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The Many Lessons of Baseball… on 2008-04-14 17:23:43 |
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I love to watch live games but I cannot watch one on TV. I don't know what it is. Cute Post.
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Random Thoughts on 2008-04-14 17:18:10 |
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I did not know that either. Interesting. Cuidate tu tambien. :)
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Random Thoughts on 2008-04-14 15:11:09 |
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Fancie.
Thank you. I hope so. I'm debating on house sitting by myself though, we'll see what happens as the day gets closer.
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Random Thoughts on 2008-04-14 15:09:46 |
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Dificult Soul.
Thank you for stopping by. You are very inspirational.
Meredith,
Thanks, I hope so. I just want him to stay this wonderful.
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Random Thoughts on 2008-04-14 15:08:23 |
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Blue,
I have no idea, I'm trying to just enjoy the ride but I analyze too much. Plus my best friend this morning says - You just have to remember that he's not the one and let go.
Uggh!!
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Random Thoughts on 2008-04-14 15:07:12 |
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Thanks Colorado, glad you stopped by!
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Random Thoughts on 2008-04-14 15:06:32 |
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Thank you Easy. I have not done it in a while but maybe I'll post some of my photography stuff.
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a buyers market or is it buyers remorse? on 2008-04-14 10:23:47 |
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I'm laughing at this one. I am the gadget person and I often buy stuff and never open it or then can't find it when I need it. That reminded me, I bought a new Tivo on Ebay, I should go use it.
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Don't Cha on 2008-04-14 10:20:13 |
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Congrats on the ferret! This stalker of yours sounds freaky! I can't believe he goes through the dumpsters.
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Looking Through Stained Glass on 2008-04-14 10:15:35 |
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As I read, I kept wanting to read. You have a way with words. It's beautiful to think that all of these things are holy and I guess they can be if you believe that Love is God.
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What to do..... on 2008-04-14 08:53:36 |
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I would struggle with the decision. It sounds like you have figured out a way to see them though. Have a talk with Broadzilla and take the job.
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Not The End on 2008-04-14 08:49:11 |
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That was very true. I didn't see the picture for some reason. It might be blocked since I am at work.
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The Last Lecture on 2008-04-14 08:48:19 |
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I realized I had heard about him at work and looked him up before. He writes about his life if you are interested: http://download.srv.cs.cmu.edu/~pausch/news/index.html
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Fucking Answer Me on 2008-04-13 00:48:13 |
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I hope you are ok. I think she's horrible for using the kids, they don't deserve that. I hope everything works out.
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Hey Dad, Can You Sue?? on 2008-04-13 00:45:29 |
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Wow, I hope he gets better soon!
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A GIRLS NIGHT OUT????? on 2008-04-13 00:43:35 |
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That was funny. Thanks for the laugh.
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Stepping into the shadow. on 2008-04-13 00:41:41 |
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I completely believe in the saying - If you love something, set it free. Give yourself time and to figure yourself out. It's a big step to make. I wish you the best.
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Excitement Reigns For Now on 2008-04-12 01:21:57 |
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I wish you both the best.
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Infidelity... on 2008-04-11 16:15:00 |
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Hmm, I wonder if you have ever been cheated on? Hopefully not.
I was with someone for 10 years of my life. He had some issues that I was unaware of. He met people every time I went out of town for business etc. It was never anything long term and I never knew about it until after the divorce.
The straw that broke the camel's back was a co-worker of his. The first time she met me, she said "You have a beautiful relationship, he talks about you a lot and he adores you." I said Thank you, nothing negative I hope and she said "Never, I want what you have." I was shocked. She had an affair with him, said she couldn't have kids and got pregnant. She told him shortly after he said he wasn't leaving me and wanted his marriage. It was his fault he was the one who hurt me, but some people see someone married and go after them anyway. That is when they are wrong. I believe in Karma and What you do to someone else will come back to bite you.
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In Whom I Trust..... on 2008-04-10 23:22:18 |
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When I read your blogs, she really makes me mad. She doesn't realize how important having a good father is to a girl. She needs to just grow up.
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I'll have mine "wit" everything on 2008-04-10 23:17:52 |
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I'm in Florida and when I hear people from up north speak they sound like dog - dawg and so on with lots of other words. There are tons of different ways of saying stuff. I like the wit one.
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from paws to claws to aws on 2008-04-10 19:21:07 |
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That was very sweet.
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To myself be true on 2008-04-10 19:18:28 |
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Sounds like you had an awesome evening. I like you have done things in the past because I felt that I should or it was time. It seems like you have grown past that point, that is awesome. I also analyze to a fault and always think it's me. I guess it's better than always thinking you are right and never being able to self reflect. What you write is always very positive, I hope to be that way at some point.
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I Wish on 2008-04-10 19:06:33 |
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I think a lot of us have similar wishes. Good luck.
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Pinocchio (FOTY) calls back .... on 2008-04-10 09:15:12 |
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He's in his own world and sounds like he's hardly listening. He definitely wins the FOTY award.
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Its Not Just a Laundry Room..... on 2008-04-10 08:55:20 |
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That sucks! What did you end up doing with the laundry? I bet that was a site. Sorry! I couldn't help myself.
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Another one Bites The Dust on 2008-04-10 08:51:13 |
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I agree with Meri as well. I'll look forward to your blog about the date. Have fun!
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The Last Lecture on 2008-04-10 08:48:59 |
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I've heard of him. He's done so much with the time he has left.
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Feelin’ Weird… on 2008-04-09 22:30:05 |
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I agree with Blue. What the heck? We're all busy but we make time for our friends. I've gone grocery shopping with my best friend because we are both busy but want to spend time together.
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Can you have it both ways? on 2008-04-09 22:22:23 |
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I've learned that I never want to be on a pedestal, I want to be an equal with someone who I adore and adores me. I'm not perfect and putting you on a pedestal only gives you a longer distance to fall. I think this struck a nerve with something my ex-husband would say.
I thought I wanted to have someone that loved me more than I loved them. When I was in that situation, I got bored and I had to end things. I think the key is having the balance of both people adoring each other. With Brian, you always want what you can't have and for some reason you want that person more. What's hard is when two people completely love each other and they show their love in different ways. Uggh, why is love so difficult.
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WTF? on 2008-04-09 19:10:44 |
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Wow, that would freak me out. Good luck with getting something done. That's sick.
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Tina 1976 – 2008 on 2008-04-09 14:06:19 |
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Wow, I'm sorry for your loss. It's makes me think of live your life to the fullest and it sounds like she did. I don't know what else to say.
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Jellyfish Stings on 2008-04-09 00:01:31 |
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Have you see the Devil Wears Prada? Sounds like she took lessons from that lady.
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Desperately Wanting on 2008-04-08 23:59:51 |
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Grosso on the neighbor!! EPO sounds like a great idea for the ex-boyfriend. I hope everything is going well. Stay strong, although you see like a hard ass who won't put with crap. (I hope)
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Is this Karma I see? on 2008-04-08 10:46:38 |
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That is great!! Brought a smile to my face. I suggest you start writing him about the changes in the paperwork at the end, that should bring up her bill a little. HaHa
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NOTHING TO SAY on 2008-04-08 10:44:42 |
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I understand. I think you should write when you feel that you want to and it's ok if you don't. I really enjoy this site and feel that the people on it are very caring. I wish you the best in everything you do!
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I just want to be Enough for them... on 2008-04-07 23:19:28 |
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You are such a strong person and when I read what you write I clearly see how much you adore your children. They will be great adults because they have a parent that they can follow, you. You will be their rock and as you know, we all get weak. Although, I don't have kids, I feel your pain.
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Last Week's Thoughts on 2008-04-07 23:13:13 |
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Colorado,
Sorry about your uncle K. Maybe the trip to Florida will do you some good. I know I'm happier down here. Thanks for sharing a part of your life with us.
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Affirmation on 2008-04-07 22:45:09 |
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It sounds like you had a productive conversation with your mom. You did the right thing in both situations it seems - mom and friend. Glad Kaylie's home.
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No appeal whatsoever?? on 2008-04-07 22:31:49 |
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Wow!I wish I had some ideas for you. Shouldn't there be like a public defender or something? I feel really bad for you and what you have had to go through.
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Nikki and I on 2008-04-07 09:08:53 |
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I love reading about your kids, you write with a lot of love towards them!
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Night at the Drive-In on 2008-04-06 21:14:10 |
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I'm happy to hear that things are going well with camera guy. He sounds like a winner so far!
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Oh No, He Did-Int! on 2008-04-06 15:49:24 |
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I like this one. I thought I had read most of your posts but I must not have back in February
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Love Ain't Easy on 2008-04-06 01:20:59 |
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wow, this is a difficult scenario you are in. I hope you find your happiness
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Just when I thought it was safe .... on 2008-04-05 17:59:43 |
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Sounds like a wierdo! I would stay away. Take it as a compliment, you must have made quite the impression.
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