Last night, Brian brought me warm milk after my shower and basically came up to say good night.  It was really sweet and I was in disbelief.  He said it would be a few minutes before... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-01 07:26:22
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I am trying to make up my mind.  I asked him to go home after his trip and that I needed my space.  I saw a completely different side of him last night.  I was shocked, hurt and... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-03 00:57:57
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It's been just over 2 days since I have heard from Brian.  He's on a trip and I expected very little contact.  It's the first time that I'm a little sad.  Before he left I asked him... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-05 08:13:00
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My mind is scattered, I don't know what to write about. I feel like Brian and I have developed this screwed up pattern where I tell him that I want him to go home and he becomes loving,... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-06 12:57:24
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Mindless Update Aside from all of my Brian issues I wanted to post something more mindless about my weekend. Having friends is great and I would not trade mine for the world. So on Friday... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-06 14:33:39
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I went out to lunch to get a new comforter set and on the way back, about a half mile from work, I got rear ended.  The impact was pretty hard and I was pushed forward a couple of feet. ... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-08 14:44:05
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This has been a long week for me.  I'm in a wierd position when it comes to Brian because we both know it's over, we both know we love each other and we have spent some time together when I... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-09 16:02:08
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Today was my deadline for Brian to go home and I met it. On Saturday I went to Orlando for a girls weekend with friends from Jacksonville.  Brian called Saturday morning because he... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-12 13:49:22
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This is my third night by myself and I am not being very succesful.  Tonight I went out with girl friends and I had a blast.  We talked for almost 3 hours during dinner and afterwards in... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-13 23:39:52
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I am having one of those days where I feel a heavy feeling in my chest, almost like something is wrong but I don't know what. It rarely happens and I don't really understand it. It might have... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-14 16:13:04
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First, I guess I should say this is definitely a rant and I do see that it's a good thing because it takes my focus off of Brian in a way. Some Background:  2 nights ago I went to eat at... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-05-16 09:28:48
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