In NJ, R stayed at a motel while I stayed with my family. After the last incident I could not tell my family he was there. I would spend most of the day with him and then I would go back home to... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 19:30:00
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After the baby was born, he knew he needed to get a divorce and so did I.  We were pretty young and when we went to the attorney he said he needed a retainer of $2,000.  I went to a... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 19:45:00
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So we are living across the street from the college and we are both going to different schools. I had made a couple of friends and apparently so had he. One day when he was driving to work R, got... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 19:50:00
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I had about a year and 3 months left of school and R decided he did not want to continue with college. He worked at a retail store for a year and then started to work in sales. He said he wanted to... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 20:00:00
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Present day, I was really excited about Valentine's day.  Bri and I had 4 of our closes friends coming over for dinner and one of them was going to cook with me. We even had the menu... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:15:00
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Last night I was sitting there reading other people's thoughts and i decided I wanted to tell Bri about it.  He was sitting on couch across from me.  It was after 11p.m.  So I said... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:30:00
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I'm amazed at how much I have written. It has been pouring out, I guess because it's easy to tell a story. So I finished college and I found a job that made pretty good money. He was still... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:55:00
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So we are now living apart and I decide that I'm going to spend Christmas with my family.  He wanted to do something together so we stayed at a hotel in Miami.  I did not feel the same... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:59:00
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So the final year - we planned a trip to Italy when I got sick and we had to cancel. I spent the week in the hospital instead. We had now been together for 9 years. In college I had made... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:59:00
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Before long it was September and we were in counseling.  We went to our second session on September 19th.  I cried a lot in that session because of the things he said.  The counselor... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:59:00
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Still in the past . . .On September 19th my best friend and his best friend had a beautiful baby girl. Our respective best friends were another married couple. I had gone to the hospital that... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:59:00
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I realize that I'm leaving a lot of the parts about our love out and I think it's because this is all in the past and I've tried to move on.  Here are some details and stories of the in... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:59:00
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Still in the past. Over the next month, we kept seeing each other. He was absolutely wonderful. He was there when I needed him and we talked all of the time. We were doing almost everything... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:59:00
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I realize that I should finish the story; it's just still hard to write even after 3 years have passed. When I hung up with Christie, I could not help but call R. He could not believe she had... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:59:00
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The real reason for the blog is as usual for me lately: relationships.  I just read an article on relationships and marriage.  It's written by someone who is 40 with a child and... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-01 23:59:00
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After thinking about settling, I decided that I needed to think about what my must haves are and whether Brian can meet these things in my life.  I work in IT and part of what my team... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-03 09:41:19
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So I have been thinking a lot lately about my relationship as most of you know. I should say that I rarely mention Brian to my friends because I do not want their input but they continue to give... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-04 16:55:10
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Last night did not turn out how I thought it would.  Brian called around 6:30 to say he would come home soon.  At 8, I went for a walk and he called and we made plans for dinner and a... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-05 11:44:29
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As most of you know, Friday night was a hard night for me so I decided that I was going to have a good time on Saturday night and not think about Brian. I had made plans with Jen and another friend... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-07 15:45:53
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I realize that I have some serious issues letting go.  I think about the good and all the what if's to a cripling point.  Then he's wonderful, makes a kiss sound on the phone before... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-09 23:03:08
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I have to share this story because some of you will get a laugh out of the things that happen in my life or things I do. Some background - I live in a somewhat urban community with tons of... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-10 13:04:03
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I have a lot going through my head today which is unrelated to my weekend.  So this weekend went really well.  On Friday, I went out with Brian and his friends to my favorite Italian... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-13 23:31:22
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So last night, I had a friend call who was obsessing over an email she sent to some guy she's been playing bejeweled with online. She was nervous about how he would take it and she is now... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-15 13:50:07
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So last night, I had a meetup event at a Sushi place a few blocks from where I live. I had an awesome time! It was just 4 of us but the conversation was great. I drank a Martini and since I'm... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-17 08:59:44
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For some reason today, my father is on my mind. I guess I have read a few blogs that triggered the thoughts of him. My father was the father that people wish for. He was nurturing, caring and... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-21 17:01:01
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A year after Teresa passed away, a good friend of his from Cuba, sent him a letter that her best friend had just moved to the US from Cuban and lived nearby. He had her and her family over and this... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-21 22:34:00
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It seems like the week is going by at a quick pace.  My friends were here for the weekend and we had a good time.  We did some site seeing, some shopping and I made dinner for 7 on... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-22 10:29:35
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Everything in life is about finding your balance and sometimes I struggle with finding mine. For example, when I moved here I felt very alone. I was living in a city where I knew no one and my only... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-24 16:12:22
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So EasytoSay had an idea for blogging about the first time we had sex. So mine was quite lovely. I had been seeing Roger for 2 years on and off, I was 16 and I did not want to have sex until I was... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-25 11:15:52
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It started off with an email from a friend asking me to go to dinner tonight with her and husband. I was happy to hear from her. Since I have an entire weekend planned without Brian, I called and... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-25 12:55:16
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At first I thought I was being irrational for my meltdown yesterday but now that I’m thinking it through I realize what caused it. Yesterday morning, I went to the guest bathroom and it... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-28 11:47:34
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This weekend there was one thing I bought that caused me great happiness.  I know this sounds silly but for the past 2 years I have wanted an AeroGarden and I finally bought myself... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-28 15:29:30
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First I'll give you an Aero Garden update, since this is the fun part of my blog (sad, I know but I think it's great). The first plants are popping through, I know you probably don't care but I... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-30 11:33:36
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I get sad and bothered over the smallest things and I know you don't understand. Things that I should just get over but I can't. I know it would be hard for me to not understand why we... Read More
Posted by: prelude2it on 2008-04-30 14:13:32
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