Last night ended on a really bad note, I ended up eating half of a tuna salad baguette with butter, I felt like I had to because I was examining my hair and had to eat something healthyish. But I got over it, and started my new day. I woke up at 7am and thought I wouldn't be able to go out shopping because it was raining so much, but at 9am it was clear so I got ready. I first went into New Look and the first thing that caught my eye was a pair of black skinny jeans, so I went over to see what sizes they had. In New Look, I knew my size was 16. All they were 10s and 12s. I grabbed a size 12 and carried on looking but not concentrating, I just felt exhiliarated by holding a size 12! I went to try them on, I got them over my ankles fine, kept pulling, no problems yet, I pulled up over my waist and done the jeans on, and that was it, I Was In. I was wearing a size 12 that is a perfect fit, absolutely perfect. I bought them immediately, gleaming on the inside.

I wondered if it was just New Look I could only be a size 12 in, so I went to buy some more clothes.

I bought five dresses, in size 12.

Isn't that just fantastic? I mean, I know I haven't gone about this the right way, but for the first time in my life, I am a size 12. I've never been a size 12 and I cannot wait to try on the clothes and break the news to my mum.

I haven't eaten yet today, I worked out and I can feel the pain from it, which I love because I know it's working. Not long after my shopping trip, I started thinking about food again, what to eat, will I even eat, etc? So I came home, and grabbed all of the tomatoes, huge lettuce, tins of tuna and sweetcorn and a couple of red onions and turned it into a massive salad that will last me a week, I also done the same with all of the fruit. I actually feel happy with eating that. I can have a bowl of salad, then fruit salad after and I can't let myself eat anything else because I'm in far too deep, I cannot be a size 12, then put weight on so I won't be anymore, I cannot allow that to happen, I can't.

Having this new.. Regime? Makes me not very keen to go to the Doctors anymore and I know it's bad of me. Truth is, I could really do with some help, especially with a therapist, so I will go at 3pm and just say what I can.

On the whole, a very nice day today, I am very happy.