Thoughts.com Blogs - ''thanks-a-latte''

I am seriously obsessed with black coffee recently. Everytime I have a cup, I feel motivated and not even hungry, is caffeine that sexy? I don't want to be hooked on it though. For instance, Monday was a bad day, and coffee helped. I woke up and I realised I couldn't even see out of my right eye, I ran to the mirror and saw that my eye is so swollen I cannot even open it properly. I had to go to work with just one eye showing, my other eye was covered up by my backcombed fringe hiding it, and yes, I did put make up on the left eye showing, dammit. Anyway, I got to work, completely pissed off and knowing that my boss was not in the country, so I had a coffee then one of the other guys came in the office and I just announced that I'm leaving at 2pm to go to the doctors and it was okay. I wouldn't of said that without the coffee, honestly. 2pm arrives now and I just headed home to take my make up off and rest, screw going to the Doctors. Yes, I'm aware I lied. So for the whole of that day I drank loads of black coffee and water and did not eat one thing until I was in bed at like 9pm-ish time and it was just a chocolate bar, then I repeated the same yesterday (without going home early!) and I only ate 8 squares of choc and a health yogurt. I have lost weight, I can tell when I wear my skinny jeans, and I do love it, eventhough I'm ashamed I'm doing it wrong and I feel completely guilty about my hair, I think it's just me being paranoid but I'm sure it is getting worse, so in the next week when I get paid, I'm going to buy me loads of vits, etc to help me out.

Talking of my skinny jeans, remember the black size 12 ones I could actually fit into? Well, they are so loose it's loveable! I'm nearly at the saggy jean ass place but I have a naturally massive behind so doubtful. But wow, if my size 12s ain't fitting me, does that mean a 10 will?

Its weird, I do have a lot of stuff that I do want to write down but I just don't have it in me. To be honest it is only 8:43 fucking am. I gotta stop the early mornings, but I only wake up early to work out very early so it's out of the way. Which reminds me, I think my mums boyfriend is moving out, apparantly Saturday? Not holding my breath though, but if so, hello home gym.

Dear god, it's 8:45am. I'm going to be so bored. Infact, I got so bored I downloaded Scrubs 4! I curse myself.

8 days till Scrubs 7!