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This morning, on the way to work, I catched my normal bus, and for once, it was empty, I was the only passenger on that bus until the last time (it's right by my work) and as stupid as it sounds, when are you ever just the only person on your bus or train and you realise and appreciate the silence. I felt grateful, i did. I know it sounds weird.
Anyway, yesterday was my last day of rest and i made sure i seriously enjoyed it. I was up at 7am (the usual) and done my exercise, then had a bath, washed my hair, applied all the female lotions afterwards so I smelled like a tropical fruit bowl, and made my post on here, got to watch Scrubs with weed (it really is always the best) and eventually started on the whole family meal, I ate some because it was soft and my teeth have been giving me agony as well as stomach pains, but just a little. And yes, I did bring it up, I can't even question it this time, it's just making me so fed up. But then, I'm on a work shift and i barely eat throughout that so mebbe I kinda already knew... something. But that was it, Just finished the day off with applying fake tan and laying in bed watching TV with weed, I fell asleep at like 9pm and woke up at 7am on the dot, i am such a granny.
I do sometimes wish I didn't have to work but i'm gonna feel like that with every job, especially my first job, practically made me suicidal. But the job i got now, really cool and i appreciate it very much, i also get days off so i can relax and not just on the weekend. I have to admit though, i do love being at home when everyone else is out working. I know it sounds so housewifish and dweeby but it does seriously give me a smile. I love doing my exercises then having a bath or shower and I've done this by 8am, then, I usually download a film or the next series of Scrubs! (i know, i am obsessed) Decide on what to have for breakfast, but I usually do cleaning about then, I have breakfast at like 10:45am, always around that time, i don't know why. So I'll clean my room up, which does need doing everyday, make all the beds, hoover, wash up, prepare ingredients in advance for dinner, then thats it, total relaxation until I gotta cook or when someone gets home. I like being at home, it's just always nice and i don't feel i appreciate it as much.
I really need to go get my blood taken from the doctor, but i don't want to know about it after, but of course i'll be told. I was reading an article yesterday, I even read it out aloud to mum, and her eyes widened. All my symptoms matched to Anaemia, or Diabetes. There was something else but typical me can't remember it. I don't even feel like I'm behaving in the right manner. I'm not acting concerned, infact, i almost don't care. But it isn't depressing.
One more thing, Isabella texted me yesterday with 'Working saturday?' + my reply - 'Indeedio' = no reply, hurrah.
oh and p.s. October 25th, you better be watching (i THINK) NBC or ABC, either one for the new Scrubs series.
Over obsessive, compulsive maniac is out.
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Posted by poppyxstars on 2007-10-05 02:20:10 | Rating: | Views: 300
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Our Greatest Fear
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.
-Marianne Williamson
(Always found this speech interesting and when I saw the title of your post, it seemed to fit...)
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Posted by Life_Without_Her
on 2007-10-05 14:51:47
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hey thanks, i really like that =]
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Posted by poppyxstars
on 2007-10-07 01:06:20
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