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I don't know if it's because I am so hugely due on my crimson wave or if I really am turning out to be more neurotic than I thought, but this morning, I have cried my eyes out whilst on the phone to mum.
I had a dream last night, a horrible dream. I was dreaming of every day life, I was watching me wake up, go to work, come home, spend time with and then sleep. But then one day, (in the dream) a message appeared for me out of nowhere. It read ''Take advantage of the time you have with your mother now, because you are slowly losing her' Ever since that, I've been wide awake. I know it's just a dream and I shouldn't take it seriously, but it scared the hell out of me. At the end of the day, it's just me and mum. I've got other people around me that I love with all my heart, but she is like the Queen compared to everyone else. this is so stupid and I was so angry at myself for crying to mum. She didn't get upset, just made me feel better, obviously she said she isn't going anywhere but it's so on my mind it's nearly ruining work for me. I think I'm going to ask her to get a check up at the doctors, just so I can know how she is. I just keep thinking to myself, 'what the hell am I going to do when it eventually is her time?' fuck, my eyes are welling up again.
I wish I had more time to write things out properly, not even at the weekend I have time.
Thursday tonight for Scrubs Series 7, epidose 3! So freakin' excited.
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