Making a decision (most of time) is easy. well depending on what the options are it is. Yesterday I started of the day well, I had a banana and a coffee for breakfast, and kept refilling my cup with coffee or reached for the water, I felt fine. It was my turn to cook for the family (mum & her boyf.) big family huh? anyway, so I made meatballs and vegetable wedges, like potato wedges but with red onion, sweet potato, etc. I smothered the veg roast in olive oil because I knew I wouldn't touch hardly anything with oil on it, and cooked the meatballs in stock (lil' recipe I know) with no fat at all, so if I wanted a few to nibble on, no biggy, it's just meat with no added fat. I also had 4 x 125gr of Muller yougurts to have throughout the day, they were 55cals each, 4 of them are 220cals and that a day is fine by me, but I didn't touch them, I think the flavours that were left didn't look very appealing, raspberry or cherry. (before I forget, if you ever get the chance, get a vanilla yogurt and some cherry compote, or make it, and add crushed ginger nut biscuits. Sounds horrible, but I discovered this recipe using a healthy vanilla yogurt with cherry compote and I just added ginger nuts, it tasted divine, please try it) Anyway, so I had a small portion of the dinner, and purged afterwards. Afterwards, I just chilled out, then I remembered I made healthy Creme Brulee's. And they actually are low in calories, it's made out of skim milk, no fat milk powder, diet sugar and thats it! I caramalised the sugar on top of all of them and every tucked in, my mums boyf. ate most of them, they did taste good though! I had one but threw it up which I didn't need to, they are only 129 cals each and it's a good portion in a glass for you too, full of calcium. So later on, I had a bowl of good cereal to replace the calcium & etc i ruined. That was all I ate, I just hate it when I know I start a day good but finish it shitty, I have been learning on how to say no, I can notice myself, I haven't eaten choc for a week nearly, I think if I can apply the no factor to most foods, I'll be good. But having someone make all of these decisions for me would be so much more easier so I wouldn't crumble.
I'm going food shopping later with mum, I'm planning to buy loads of cereal, milk, few good yogurts and loads of vitamins. I am depending on them a bit to make it all better, whatever the it is, but I just hope they work.
The time is 9:35am. I'm writing this blog later than I normally would from home. This morning I actually decided to have a lie in, I woke up at 8:30am, an hour and a half lay in, I noticed I felt much more rested when I woke up but I did not feel for my exercise and I get this now. If I wake up early enough, I'm happy to do my exercise because it's so early, i'm not really focusing on what is going on around me, the time is being lost as I work out, but if I wake up at a more reasonable day off time, I don't want to do exercise at all. It's so strange, I fell asleep at 9pm last night! (I know, I'm too used to working and sleeping in my non shift hours) How does that work out though? I love my twist 'N' tone, I just don't think my stomach crunches are doing much, although I'm doing them exact to the directions of the guidelines. I think, when I get paid, I'm going to buy my gym stuff, even if I cannot smuggle it into the spare room, most of the apparatus is collapsable so I can buy a trunk box and fold up the stuff and throw it in there! I hate exercise videos, I don't have the patience, I have so very little patience and that even annoys me. I'm the kinda gal who likes to work out for a good half hour a day knowing that I've done some form of exercise that will have me in pain the next morning, no pain, no gain, right? I know you're supposed to work out for like 45mins - 1hr five days a week, but I would rather do 30mins every day that i'm off work which will be 4 days, so I know I'm not pushing myself too much, if I feel the pressure, I go off the idea and I won't do it. But if I take it easy, make out like I'm hardly doing anything, I will start to love it. If I like it that much I can even work out when I get home from work, how much would I love that!
The house phone rang around 9am whilst I was on the phone to mum and I absentmindedly picked it up, it was dad. eurgh. now he wants to care.
To round up my blog that most of the time, never makes any sense, I will be strong today. I will damnright monitor what junk food shit comes through that front door and my own food that I can't purge on! I really should go back to the doctors, I don't want to not ever go back and act like it's not a big deal. It is.
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5 days till Scrubs Series 7 people! yayayay
