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| Cake, a Snog, and some Nigel Slater love. EDITED. |
Before you start to wonder, no, there isn't any insanely good news, although after the crap set backs I've suffered, you'd think I'd have some. =]
I still haven't gotten a job yet, isn't this just crazy!? But we'll come back to that another time. Overall things have been good, I haven't had any supposedly mental breakdowns, I feel neutral, if that can explain it enough. Mother has been signed off work due to her shoulder, she has rheumotoid and it prevents her from doing most things with her right arm so the people at the hospital and Doctor's are now her new best friends, or 'friendly things', as she likes to call them. So seeing as we both are at home, weve been going on a lot of days out, to random places, or some planned. Last week, we visited four museums, a huge open air market, and a lot of general dilly dallying around London, it has been lovely, although sometimes boring as she loves to stand and stare at statues that mean nothing to her for quite some time. On one of our recent days out, we were coming home from Oxford Street, it was far too hot on the bus and I had no water, but I didn't care after the biggest group of people got on the bus. Most people trudged upstairs and some sat downstairs, but some also sat across from us, but only one sat opposite me, Nigel Slater. I basically collapsed (in my mind..) I stared at him from behind my sunglasses which are reflective and you can't tell if I'm looking at you or not, and I was speechless. But then, all of a sudden, I saw my own hand reach out and tap him and heard myself speak, apparantly I said 'I'm so sorry to bother you but I just have to tell you that you are my absolute favourite cook/chef/whatever, I adore all of your work and I apologise if this is awkward for you' He smiled at me and thanked me many times, I blushed like a hoe. He was so lovely, I couldn't get over it. If you haven't come across any of Nigel's recipes, I seriously recommend his Fast Puddings book, it makes you drool like a Doberman.
I'm starting college soon, I am rather nervous actually, and I need to explain the snog thing but I'll come back another time, I'm running a bath and I need to save it!
EDIT. Herro.
Now where was I? I'm in a Harry Potter mood today btw, enjoying it so much that I just might start reading the books, yet again. Anyway, I think my college courses start on the 20th of September, one is learning how to set up a small business, and the other is cake making & decorating, combine the two together and hey presto, I'm like Richard Branson but replace the goatee and planes with cakes and an electric whisk. I'm very excited, I haven't actually enrolled yet but I can't do that until next week when it's open day, I've got until Sept 5th so hurrah, etc. I suppose it seems a little out of the blue mentioning this but I'm obsessed with bakery, I have been ever since I started my chef diploma, and everyday, without fail, I bake something. Thank god me and mother don't gain the weight.
Talking of weight, I'm finally 9 and a half stone and maintaining it. I'm not maintaining it in an ideal way but it works for me. I have egg whites for breakfast, salad & a small portion of mackeral for lunch, then fruit salad which I guess you could call dinner (I have it around 8pm) and 1 or 2 naughty treats later. I deliberately don't eat just so I can eat my sweet stuff, I just can't fight my sweet tooth, mother said I should get checked for diabetes which my Granma had, so I will get checked actually. I exercise daily too, from 9am, for about three hours, it kills me, it really does but I just can't go without it now, I'm very sure if I gain weight I would actually have a panic fit, it's gotten far too deep than I'd ever imagine, but I'm working on it. I still eat freely on the weekends though, well a Sunday actually. Saturday I have egg whites straight after breakfast, then after we come back from our day out I eat mini shredded wheat, which is usually around 4pm (yes, I'm aware it's late but dammit I love cereal) then I don't eat until the evening which is full of indulgent food, which last night was, chocolate fudge cake and custard and vanilla & chocolate swirled ice cream, I know, how piggish. Sunday is the day I eat like a normal person, well, try to, I know mother tries to help. I had egg whites this morning straight after exercise, and then later I had a small wedge of melon and a nectarine & coffee, sounds minimalist but it's because I'm going to eat a massive roast dinner with fruit crumble and custard for dessert, probably ice cream too. I honestly think since losing all my weight and exercising very often and snacking often (which I do, on berries) my metabolism is just running with the wind hence me not gaining weight.
I do feel incredibly guilty of eating so many sweet things in a week, but I keep it fairly healthy, for example, every week day I always have a fruit salad in the evening, it's mandatory, and then I had chocolate angel delight (80 cals) and cake and custard after that, too! It sounds disgustingly over indulgent, BUT the cake was made with low fat/low cal margarine, 50gr of flour, splenda sugar only, and the custard was made with skimmed milk and splenda too, so it's much less lower in calories, but I'm looking at it quantity wise, which doesn't make me feel so great, but I've bought extra fruit for the new week and packets of angel delight, so I'm gonna stick to those two this week and see how I get on, try and dispurse my sweet tooth a bit, I need to bring back my rock hard determination, but did I only need that when I was bigger and there is a part of me that realises it's okay to relax now, and enjoy my food? But I hate feeling full, it makes me feel sick and ugly as a person. Food, huh? You gotta love it to hate it.
I've had wonderful fruit this summer too, I've never eaten so many cherries, peaches, raspberries, plums, strawberries, greengages, so yummy. I'm getting back into my food mode, because I'm dragging mother into every charity shop or boot sale going so I can find amazing cook books, yes most of them are based on cakes and desserts but who can blame me, huh? I feel like it's a new chapter emerging in my life, and I love it.
Scrubs next year, wahoo, can you believe it? Far too excited, and the new Harry Potter film too. It's a good day for a last day of the month, I hope September is better.
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Posted by poppyxstars on 2008-08-24 09:57:46 | Rating: | Views: 209
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