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failure to launch no. 98343
I must be predictable on this blog by now. I left work early at 1pm yesterday, it really cheered me up, i even done a little shopping with mum on the way home, we finished work at the same time. I got home, got changed and cleaned up my room, busted out my exercise then I had that sandwich I was......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-01 02:50:36 | Rating:

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when you realise you cannot trick yourself, at all
I thought i done okay yesterday, mainly because i've suddenly turned ill, i have painful stomach pains and i throw up constantly and i'm not causing it. I felt so ill yesterday that i actually had to have something to line my stomach because i was so sore from vomiting that i made a egg mayo......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-02 01:40:00 | Rating:

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''trying to exhale''
Yesterday still carried out the same, mum made meatballs and i'm a sucker to them. I've been terrible to myself recently, I should respect my body more and eat the right food, not break down and stuff my face. I have to go to the orthodontist today and i have to go pass a Krispy Kreme counter,......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-03 00:47:44 | Rating:

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why having an orthodontist can be good news.
10:30am appointment at my orthos, I arrive early and wait patiently with my iPod. Then I get called in. What does she do? Decide to basically replace everything. She annoyed me so much, I missed the last appointment due to Mum having a major accident, and she got pissed off so she gave......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-04 01:17:24 | Rating:

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our greatest fear is that we are insignificant.
This morning, on the way to work, I catched my normal bus, and for once, it was empty, I was the only passenger on that bus until the last time (it's right by my work) and as stupid as it sounds, when are you ever just the only person on your bus or train and you realise and appreciate the......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-05 02:20:10 | Rating:

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''i'm 50/50''
Saturday morning, 9:06am to be exact. I'm at work, with a scummy coffee, not scRummy. Yesterday ended well, i think. I left work at 6pm, in a good mood, my boss and other colleagues were hanging out in the office crackin' jokes so were all laughing. I walk down to my bus stop to grab my......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-06 02:19:05 | Rating:

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i'm no way near the 2nd step, and my mother...
IS NEUROTIC. My mother, is a crazy person. We'll get back to this though. Yesterday, I finished work at 12:30pm, my lovely boss said I can work from home for the weekend, how brilliant is that! I was so happy that I promised him a lifetime of carrot cake. I got home at 1ish-pm and just......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-07 01:37:21 | Rating:

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''i got it cheap''
I went to the flea market like I told you (yes, i know i went on sunday and today is thursday, but i had problems logging in!) I got a whole load of stuff, the thing about this market, is that a lot of old posh people sell their stuff off, mostly gay older men or the women who used to love that......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-11 01:24:18 | Rating:

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my overkill. [+ pictures]
Colin James Hay is amazing, isn't he? I really struggled with trying not to eat yesterday, I felt much more hungry than normal, I didn't have much coffee but I don't think thats it. All I ended up eating was two bowls of bran cereal and a yogurt. Mum made a home made pizza with chicken,......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-12 02:04:26 | Rating:

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calories are evil.
I count calories on absolutely everything. Even if I'm not going to eat it, doesn't matter, I still need to know. For example, all the cereals in the house, are less than 200 cals per 30gr bowl with 125ml of milk. 200 cals sounds very high to me, but I stick to it, if I am replacing......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-14 01:50:11 | Rating:

| Views: 374 | Comments: 1 | Tags: and i feel alone.. music work anorexia anorexic bulimic bulimia purging calories fat sad depressed scrubs gym money chocolate obese diet exercise

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