im having an affair. no one knows about this blog, but i need someone to talk to.  i have been married for 17 years to my highschool sweetheart. he is in the airforce and we have 3 beautiful children together. things have been livable but unhappy for a long time. i met a man at work (who is married also) and fell in love. this will either be a tragic love story ,or a fairytale. i wish i could see into the future and know which it will be. i know i love him with all my heart. i recently left my husband and my two older children overseas to pursue my career and move forward with this man. but he hasnt left his wife yet... am i stupid? probably... but should i have stayed with a man who made me so unhappy.. he has never been faithful ever. im tired of not being enough. i guess if the man of my dreams never leaves his wife, i am still better off... it just seems so selfish. i could have given my kids everything and sacraficed my happiness for them. some times i look around my room while i lay on my air materess and i cry, and i hope i did the right thing. im in love. im selfish. im so sad. holidays are hard.