I have no idea what to do with this girl. She's over opinionated, way too 'flashy' and is very self centred. I know I need to lose weight, sort my confidence out and feel better about myself but telling myself I'm georgous and sexy is beyond me and seems very egotistical.

Anyway, here is the background to this blog. My friend came over to stay this weekend, with my invitation, as I thought that because my partner was away we could reconnect as I have been focusing on the more important issue of my relationship and fixing problems with that. I admit my friendship has suffered but I know who is going to be around when times get hard (which they have been for the past 18 months). It's not going to be the girl who cancelled on 90% of our 'get togethers' and is self centred and doesn't think about others. She brought over ALOT of one particular food, which are ok but I can only eat about 4 before getting bored, and we went to the store for supplies she overspent and this meant to serious over eating of the same types of food (note: she has recently lost 5 stone and she is looking good but she still looks the same to me). Not only did she consume 75% of what we bought, she then tucked in to MY food I had bought for my lunches for the week. This would have been ok if she had bloody asked!!! She didn't and she just chomped away but hid the evidence. I think she may have taken the rubbish home with her. She only confessed about half way through the next day after I was wondering where my lunches had gone. This is stuf I bought and now I'm out of pocket because of her gluttony

The next thing was that we sent shopping the next day. I lost her in one shop and she eventually wandered out saying 'I wondered where you had run off to'. I soon called the shopping trip to a close and decided we were going home whilst secretly looking forward to the peace. We went to another shop on the way home and I noticed her doing something which really lowered my opinion of her but I shall not mention it. When we were on the final leg home, she invited herself to stay again so she could avoid her flat mate's gathering she was having. I said that I would have just stayed out the way if it was me but she said she would feel obliged to socialise. I was ok with her staying but I can't deal with people for too long and it has taken me a very long time to be comfortable with my partner. She eventually got up in the morning after I told her she had to use the shower first as she had her hair to do but she was wanting to sleep a bit more but as I start work early, I had to insist. When she got out, I gave her a hairdryer and straighteners and left her to it while I had my shower. When I got out she wanted to use some face cream. I said she could use my day to day stuff which is quite expensive but I thought she would only use a normal amount. I think about a 6th of the entire tube went (about £3.00 worth) and she said 'I use the sunbed, I need a lot of anti-aging product'. In my mind if you use the sunbed, you deserve to dry out. Surely if a normal person stays at someones house, they take their face wash, moisturiser, toothbrush ect with them. This would be far too much sense and consideration.

One of the few comforts I got was the fact she used too much blusher and I didn't tell her. She asked to borrow bus money too. I am not made of money. I can't afford to feed a glutton who doesn't have the sense or consideration to ASK before she consumes.

I was fed up of her saying how attractive she now is (she's not really, her personality sucks). I was really fed up of being told I need to bring out the girl inside as I'm a bit of a tomboy but sometimes wish I was a bit girlier then I am. I was sick to the back teeth of being told how her method works, like everything else one thing for one does not work always work for two. I really didn't appreciate having the minor fact she is a DD while I am a simple D. No difference in the simple light of things as they are the same size except she has a smaller chest size now. But I did find a bra that fit at the biggest size the brand do and she couldn't even though she loved the styles. HA! She just came across as someone I really don't want to know. She is turning back to the girl I used to dislike and I refuse to put up with 'vampire' friends who don't respect me or bring anything positive into my life. I don't have the time or energy to commit to a friendship that is toxic.

I think this should be a turning point for me to get on with my own life and focus on my partner and my family as I don't have many friends and I can't make them easily. I'd love to have friends but I don't have patience for most people. I have my family who are the most important thing in my life and the past 18 months have proved how much I am supposed to think of them and not waste my time on people and things that don't matter. I can make new friends. I can make myself comfortable in my own skin (eventually) but I can't do it with soul destroying 'vampires' around me. My partner knows me better than anyone and my sister is my best friend as I can talk to her about anything and I trust her. I thik it's because we've been brought up with the same morals and don't think ourselves the ultimate sex goddess when we wear something kind of nice. My friend looks the same but slimmer and tanned. She still has the same face and appearance to me. Her attitude has altered and her personality has changed. I don't like talking about her gym routine or what shoes and clothes are fashionable. It doesn't interest me. Never has done and I don't think it will start now.

Thats enough for one night. x