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so yea...its back again. the naughsiating feeling of wanting to talk to Terry again. for those of you who dont know who he is, he is a guy that have been talking to for the past six months and he's opened me up to a whole new world of me. i wasnt a very open person when it came to how i felt and mostly kept it inside. but from the beginning he made me tell him and be hosest with him no matter what. it kiiled me inside to do it but he wouldnt let me out of it until i gave in....and i did. and the more we talked, the more i liked him and the morei was open with and to him.

i hope him and i can still be friends. oh! yea we dont talk anymore for some unclear reasons. but idk. i really wan tus to be friends. do u thnk that its wierd to be in love with someone that you've never seen before? and want to spend your whole life with them without even seeing what the're like? well, i have. stupid huh? idk..maybe it is. i know that all my friends think it is. i just want to be around him all the time and learn more about him and myself.

at the beginning i said that i get bored with guys VERY easily. but with im i havent. im still interested in him. maybe thats because he read me right at the beginnig. i mean the VERY beginning. it was my friend that "introduced" us and we all were talking and me being me was bein flirtatious and somewhat prideful and cocky. but all the things i said i said them in a serious way where no one could see what i realy was underneath. but he saw it. he knew that i wasnt th eplayer type and that it was just a fasade.*sp*.

thats what had me. he saw me. maybe it was a lucky guess. but what he said was true. i always tried and to mask what i realy was when talking to him. and the thing is i told him who i was but i wasnt serous when i said it to him. but he saw that i was being true and took it as word. something that no one had done before.

hey. maybe im reading a little more onto it than what it really is. but hey...its the small things that keeps you hooked, right??