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I took a shower to wash this horrible day away. Only it wouldn't wash away. I cried in the shower. I feel like I have been crying since I found out. I can't imagine what Heather is going through. My dad is my very best friend and having to wake up in a world where he doesn't exist anymore will be so heartbreaking. I never want that day to come and yet I know one day it will.
Heather's dad was sick for so long and he battled for so long with so many things. I saw the strain it took on Heather and her family. I know that Mr. Morse is in a better place, but it still is shocking. I knew I would get that phone call one day saying that he had passed away. I just never thought it would be today. I feel bad that I hadn't asked how he was doing lately. I mean it seemed as everytime I asked she didn't want to talk about it, so I stopped asking. Does that make me a bad friend? A bad co-worker?
At these times I struggle with my faith. In every loss I face... I wonder is there a place as Heaven? If there is, is Mr. Morse there? He was a good honest man. He provided a good life for his wife and children. In my heart, I suppose I believe in Heaven, but there are so many times that I question God and the whole plan He has for everyone. If Mr. Morse was suffering so much (like my aunt before she died) why did God let them suffer? It just ended up making his family be strained and suffer along with him. I saw it in Heather and her sister and I saw it when my aunt was sick and dying with my dad. My dad was stressed out and his heath was suffering. Heather was stressed. She used work as a distraction. There are just so many questions I have and in the end my heart just grieves.
It grieves for the pain that Heather and her family is going through right now. She has to go to bed in a world where she'll never hear her dad's voice again. In a world where she can't ever see him again. I don't know how I could do that. My heart is broken for her. All I want to do right now is see my dad and hug him. I can't... he's at the beach. I found myself thanking God today that my dad would be back on Monday and I would see him again. When I talked to him today I know he heard the quiver in my voice.And I know his heart broke for me cause he knew one day I would have to face what Heather is facing.
I've known Heather and her family for 10 years and at work as much as we complain about how shitty our jobs are... we are family. And I know this loss will bring us closer together. And together we'll get through this... |
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Posted by petty18 on 2008-03-10 14:33:02 | Rating: | Views: 76
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