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life
I have decided to live life like it's my very last day here. Sound good? Great. ...Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-10 14:29:04 | Rating:

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him....
He's still here.... in my heart. I'm letting go. ...Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-10 14:42:45 | Rating:

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loss...
My Great Aunt Marie is dying. She's 97. She has been sick for awhile, but today she's in and out of a coma. She doesn't open her eyes and all she murmurs is "help me." I am sad. I was named after her. I have her middle name. We all knew this day was coming, but you......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-11 11:40:55 | Rating:

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a minute
I just need aminute to breathe. ...Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-12 12:17:41 | Rating:

| Views: 71 | Comments: 1 | Tags: a minute

Why?
Why does God allow people to suffer? My aunt clearly wants to die. My mom tells me that we don't know God's plan, but how can it be in his plan to let her suffer. What is the purpose of that? When I ask my mom that question she simply says, "We don't know God's purpose either." I have......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-15 09:07:23 | Rating:

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more of the same
I've had a lot of time to sit and think lately. There have been some things that I don't like to think about, but in the process of grieving for my aunt I am doing so. You can miss people who aren't dead, but are just a million miles away. Or maybe not even a million. They could live......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-15 12:19:27 | Rating:

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good-bye
My great aunt passed away this morning. She lived 97 long years on this planet. As much as you know death is coming... you can never prepare to say good-bye. It's my grandma's birthday today too... she's been gone for many many many years. I still miss her like it was yesterday.......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-17 12:02:57 | Rating:

| Views: 110 | Comments: 3 | Tags: death

Ocotber
October has been one hellish month. I feel like I'm drowning. I'm ready for November. ...Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-20 12:28:17 | Rating:

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Funeral
Today was the day we buried my great aunt. Can anyone tell me why the word FUN is in the word funeral? Funerals are not FUN. In fact they down right suck. Especially if you (like myself) struggle with what comes after death. My parents are firm believers in God and the whole Heaven/Hell thing.......Read More

Posted on: 2007-10-22 12:10:16 | Rating:

| Views: 110 | Comments: 2 | Tags: death funerals

selfish or guilt?
I'm feeling very selfish. Or maybe it's really guilt that I'm feeling. My co-worker's dad was brought to the hospital again. Here I was crying about my car in the shop which can be replaced, but her dad can't be. A friend recently told me we all have our struggles and things that concern......Read More