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He was everything I wanted...Everything I thought of...Everything I had ever dreamt of. I took this boy and I transformed him into my perfect guy..i tweaked my expectations..I dropped some of my standards..most of my standards honestly. I closed my eyes to many a flaw...I pretended so many things were good...I pretended so many things didnt matter...I convinced myself I was the one screwing up...I settled. BIG mistake...He wasnt my prince charming...He was 98% everything I wanted to stay away from. He somehow managed to make me forget almost every single bad thing....every single lie...every single tear he made me cry...with just a few sweet words...With the few good times there were...that somehow he left out the bad endings of. It hurts to think that I made so much up...or rather closed my eyes to so much. I wanted love so bad that my perception of reality was distorted. I walked so carefully around you...tiptoed over the broken shards on the ground....resembling my many broken dreams...my compromises of who I was...the pieces of my heart that were slowly dying and falling away. I changed for him..or rather.....pretended...I thought he was the one...but to many compromises to just make it fit..We were forcing the puzzle pieces....ruining the puzzle...I thought i found love...until now..I missed him before..for a long time...I wanted to be back in his arms....but i've since then learned to let go...He's everything I never wanted...And everything I'll soon forget...
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Posted by perfectly_imperfect on 2007-10-06 14:35:51 | Rating: | Views: 77
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