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There's no replacement

Last night I slept in his shirt. I had been keeping it in a plastic bag in my closet so that it wouldn't lose his smell. Cheesy, I know. Last night, I really really needed him though. I was just feeling really shitty about everything. So I put on his shirt and went to call him before bed.

I was planning on going to bed early, but we ended up talking for a long time. I don't know how this started, but we ended up talking about us together (if you know what I mean!) and how hard it is to be apart. And I could smell him - pheromones perhaps? And his shirt was so soft, so I kept stroking it, and I was underneath it. Anyways, I ended up very turned on, and he was turned on, but he's SO shy so any time things would get a bit steamy, he would change the subject. UGH! So by the time I was calmed down (and frustrated) enough to get to sleep it was 2 in the morning, and I had class at 8:30 this morning. Bad!

I really want to try phone sex. I've never done it before, but I feel like it is becoming highly necessarily. I have no idea if it will be good, or just awkward, but I think I'm going to have to work him into it. I'm still shocked that he ever even asked me out because he is so shy. At least he can talk to me freely now... but he's not exactly the most adventurous!

I really needed a boost today, and since I wasn't going to be getting any sort of sex boost (pout) I went for chocolate. For the first time EVER chocolate was not even good enough to make it okay. That means, I am officially the most sexually frustrated that I have ever been in my life. And it's been less than three weeks. How am I going to survive three more months!?