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It feels like it's been ages since I last wrote. Really, it's only been a few months. It feels like so much has changed in the past few months.
Things with my (new) boyfriend are so serious. We've been together two months but we are absolutely crazy about each other. I spent all of last week at his house, for his vacation. I still had to work, but since he lives an hour closer to our work than I do, it was nice to get to sleep in late and get back from work at a decent hour. I loved coming home to him. And sleeping with him every night. Not just for the sex, mostly for the cuddling and just him.
I swear he is the world's sweetest guy. He made me breakfast in the morning, and dinner after work. He took me out for dessert, and gave me massages. He calls me sweetie in the softest voice, which makes me melt every single time. Not to mention he is so good looking! And smart... my ex was smart too, but my new one is so much smarter. He's a math and computer science major - but he's not at all dorky. I guess he is like the male version of me that way.
He has barely drank since he's been with me. That stresses me out a little because I remember how it was at first with my ex. For the first few months he rarely drank because he always wanted to hang out with him on weekends, and so we would either not be around alcohol or he would be driving so couldn't drink. But then, he started drinking as much as he used to, and then we went to university and he started drinking even more. It bothered me SO much. I know that it will bother me with my boyfriend as well.
My ex drank to let loose and be crazy, and to fit in, which I HATED. My boyfriend drinks out of boredom, to make hanging out with his friends fun. I think it's sad that he needs alcohol to like his friends. He needs new friends! It worries me for how he will be when I am gone. I know he will be super busy with school and working, so he won't have that much spare time to be lonely, but still. We've gotten so attached to eachother so quickly, and it will be hard to be apart.
Harder for him of course. I'm still going to be living with my two best friends (who I am away from for the whole summer and miss terribly!) and having an awesome time. He will be at home though, doing the same thing as always.
Last worry, which I'm trying to erase. I was supposed to get my period today, and it never came. I'm on the pill, so I feel like I shouldn't be worrying. But I'm very scared of being pregnant. I really don't want to deal with a child in my life, and I don't know if I could go through an abortion. But honestly, if we were going to get pregnant, we would be doing a pretty good job of it. We stopped using condoms because I thought that the pill was good enough. And we have sex almost every day. AND he is some sort of freak of nature and can keep going even after he comes, and eventually come again. Fantastic for me, but I'm pretty sure that massively increases the odds of getting pregnant. Ugh I should just insist on using condoms, and not be stupid. This is not a risk I can afford to be taking right now! |
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Posted by peace_seeker on 2008-07-15 00:20:59 | Rating: | Views: 26
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def. insist on the condoms! Birth control is only about 94% effective, so if you don't want to worry about being pregnant use both.
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Posted by kkeller
on 2008-07-15 03:09:50
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