I'm trying to study and I can't. My mind is far too distracting! I keep thinking of him.
I know that there are more important things to do than get a boyfriend. Deep down inside, I know that there is so much more to life than finding a man. A career, friends, community service, and a family. But I'm young and am not planning on starting a family any time soon, so why bother with a boyfriend?
It's hard to live in two cities so far apart. I can't date anyone in either city, because I will miss them for half of the year! Back home I could get a boyfriend for the summer. I will actually have weekends off this year! That wouldn't be too bad, but it couldn't last past the summer, since I'll be heading back here for school next year. I really don't want a boyfriend while I'm in school. Too much emotional shit to deal with. I don't want to get hurt again.
But it's so nice to have someone special to be with. Someone to talk to, someone to hang out with, go out with, and sleep with! I'll be living with the rents though, so it will be difficult to be with someone. I'm not looking forward to living there again. I don't have a choice, since it's way too expensive to pay for two apartments! The city that I go to school in has cheap rent, but it's nearly impossible to get a job that pays well here. At home, there are well paying jobs left, right, and centre, but zero places to live. Hence I have to go home to work, but have to live in the burbs.
I'm only 19, yet I feel way too independent to live in my parents' home. I don't understand how people live at home in their thirties!
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