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I'm so stressed out. I miss him so much and it's only been a month! I can't imagine doing this for two years. I'm starting to doubt our relationship - not just because of the distance but because of him.

I feel so stupid for doubting him, because he loves me so much and is good to me. But it bothers me how snappy he can get. He gets very stressed and angry about stupid things. I know this has probably been harder on him than it has been on me. And it's killing me!

I know that I love him, and I think things will feel better when we are together again. I feel like I have to have faith in our relationship in order for this. I need to recognize that we both have our faults but that we are happy together. If I keep worrying about him not being right for me, the distance won't matter, because our relationship will be over.

I just don't want to commit myself so strongly to a relationship that is wrong, like I did with my ex. I tried so hard to make things work with him. It tore me apart when it failed. The difference now is they my bf is amazing and will do anything for me. It's not one sided anymore.

Thankfully, he's coming to visit me for Thanksgiving. 11 days left. That is SO long. Well not really, considering it was originally going to be Christmas, but we couldn't wait that long. It's too hard to be apart from each other. I don't know if I can do this and preserve my sanity and succeed in my life away from him.

I can't give up on anything. I am here to live my dreams, he was not part of that plan. I can't let him ruin it - nor would he want to. It just sucks to miss him all of the time.