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Happy April!
The neighbor is having sex as we speak, again. I hate hearing them! For one, it's gross to think about it, and for two it reminds me that I'm not getting any. Thirdly... it's distracting. I'm in dire need of a hot male. Dire. I promised myself that I will stay......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-01 00:45:00 | Rating:

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The Ex-Files
I ran into him on the way to class today. First time since before Christmas, when together we cried and were sad... I had to pull away again. I've been avoiding him since then, pretty much like the black plague. So to see him today was shocking and not cool. I was late......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-02 13:35:00 | Rating:

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Reasons it is wrong.
He parties too much. He is horrible with time management Girlfriend is his last priority I have high expectations He can be a jerk. Drugs. He didn't cherish me. It's stressful to worry about things with him I drop everything for him I let him walk all over me. The list goes......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-02 14:10:00 | Rating:

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Cacaphony
I hate being upset. It's not an active emotion, or a thought, but an overall upset. My stomach has butterflies, I feel unfocused, I can't think straight again. I can't stop thinking about him. He hasn't changed at all, just his face seems a little bit older. There was......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-02 19:59:00 | Rating:

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I'm too nice
Movie tomorrow? I'm not really sure how I agreed to that... but this is bad. I seriously do NOT want to date him. I don't want to date anyone (except my ex) right now, especially not this guy. Yes somehow, I ended up inadvertantly agreeing to go to his place to see a......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-02 21:25:00 | Rating:

| Views: 32 | Comments: 0 | Tags: in need of escape

Settling
I feel calmer now. I had a good cry, slightly hysterical, hidden in the shower. That's the only place I feel comfortable crying. You can't really feel the crying because the water washes it away and distracts you from its source. All you can feel is the shaking. ......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-03 00:20:00 | Rating:

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Made it through alive and unscathed
We watched a movie. I positioned myself with my knees between us, so he couldn't come to close. He was sweet though - made me some fruit salad. Honestly, I like the guy, he's really nice, but I don't want to date him! He barely touched me all night, but then tried to kiss......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-04 00:47:43 | Rating:

| Views: 56 | Comments: 0 | Tags: flirting

Roses
The friend called me today to tell me that I left something at his place last night. That sounds bad! Anyways, I for SURE didn't leave anything there - I'm organized and knew that something was up. He wouldn't tell me what it was, and just showed up at my place to drop......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-04 21:36:24 | Rating:

| Views: 69 | Comments: 0 | Tags: boys

Some fatherly advice
I told my parents about the situation with the guy, which is weird considering I never talk to them about stuff like that. My dad told me that I have to tell him that I don't like him that way. That seems harsh! It's not like it comes up in conversation... but he's right in that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-06 15:09:03 | Rating:

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Frustrated
I'm trying to study and I can't. My mind is far too distracting! I keep thinking of him. I know that there are more important things to do than get a boyfriend. Deep down inside, I know that there is so much more to life than finding a man. A career, friends,......Read More