The other day, my mother nonchalantly asked me "Do you ever wonder how he's doing?"  Of course I do!  There isn't a day that goes by without me thinking of him.  Whether... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-02 10:10:06
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So, as mentioned in a previous post, I have an annoying neighbor with a very active sex life, who's bedroom is above mine, and who's sexual escapades often wake me due to the noise! ... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-03 13:38:30
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Lying in bed late at night, worried and anxious, his arms around her.  She grabs his hand and pulls it close to her chest.  Comfort. I miss that so much.  I saw Miranda do that... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-04 15:48:36
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I was watching the Little Mermaid the other day, and it made me wonder:  Where do we modern women get our high expectations of love, romance, and soulmates from?  It's probably not from... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-05 15:18:33
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I'm tired of being sad.  I'm tired of missing him.  I'm tired of pretending to not be those things. I'm tired of being here, in this place, barely scraping by.  I feel like I'm... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-08 00:24:51
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I just saw a show about a couple who were newlyweds and were very unhappy, and it was like a portrait of what life with him would have been like.  The guy was not working, taking some courses... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-08 14:43:40
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Life doesn't seem as bright, here all alone.  Without you, I'm a feeling a little bit lost and unglued.  There's nothing holding me back anymore, but there's also nothing pulling me... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-09 00:59:40
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It's so secret, I can't even tell myself.  I think I'm falling for him.  I love him for sure.  But I can't tell if it's in a best friend way, or in a boy-friend way.  He's my... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-10 00:01:43
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Half way finished an entry, I pushed back.  Damn back button.  Deleted everything! Yet another annoying thing to add to an annoying day.  As I was saying (grr) it started out on... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-11 20:22:50
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I came to a realization today, that I'm fairly certain I've reached before.  I can't move on if I don't let go.  I was tearing myself apart for our relationship not working out.  I... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-12 23:54:01
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Apparently this guy is breaking my three call rule.  Usually, when I don't like a guy, I'm incapable of saying something.  Does that make me too nice?  Well not really, considering... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-16 16:06:51
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Lump in throat, can't help but feel like I can't breathe. Another night and I miss you again.  You're fading from me.  That's good I guess... I want to feel better.  I want to... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-18 00:33:59
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I just listened to that song for half an hour and I'm hysterical.  Tears running down my face.  I'm not okay.  I can't pretend anymore that it's okay.  I'm not okay.  How... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-18 01:13:47
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In response to a comment I got, I just need to make a few things clear: He did not leave me.  I think if he had left me, moving on would be much easier, considering that I could blame... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-19 00:16:04
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I hate being stressed!  I think it's a good thing, because maybe it will help me get things done.  I don't know why I've been so unmotivated lately.  I hate my bad marks, but I can't... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-21 01:21:51
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That is the challenge.  I have never been one of those people!  As much as I tell myself to slow down, I'm just incapable of it.  I'm a very goal directed person, always looking... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-23 00:43:42
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Help! A male friend of mine just called me and asked me out for drinks on Thursday.  At first I was all excited because we haven't hung out in a while and it would be fun.  Excited... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-23 17:27:36
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I don't even know how this is possible.  I am paralyzed by stress.  Frozen by fear of failure.  I'm desperate to succeed, so overwhelmed that I don't even know where to begin. ... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-24 01:30:22
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I had a crazy dream last night.  I really believe in dreams - they reveal your unconscious, your deepest fears and desires. In this dream, I was with my ex.  It took place in the... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-25 11:46:45
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I need to stop facebooking.  He keeps popping up unexpectedly and it sucks!  It punches me in the stomach, knocks the wind out of me.  It makes my sanity flee, the tears well... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-25 19:38:47
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I just got back from the gym.  I was so upset and frustrated that I had to go.  The gym used to be my solution to everything, I was addicted.  I would go every day at 6am, and... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-25 21:32:53
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I've decided to just avoid facebook... if I go on once a week for the sole purpose of replying to any messages / adding friends / events, etc, then I will spend very little time running into little... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-26 21:48:57
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Tonight was the night where I went out with a friend of mine, with home I did not mean to end up on a date with.  I didn't realize until after I agreed to the date, that it was a date. ... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-28 02:43:42
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You can cut it with a knife.  Life is so confusing right now.  I'm not used to being single.  I don't want to be single.  I am so much happier with my life now that I'm not with... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-29 00:45:00
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The friend - I guess he needs a letter considering he's been in my last few posts... C.  C called me and asked to do dinner and a movie tomorrow night.  Problem:  I never plan... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-29 16:00:00
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Why do I always end up taking on way more than I can chew?  I volunteered to be fundraising coordinator for an organization that I volunteer with.  We are organizing a festival that is... Read More
Posted by: peace_seeker on 2008-03-31 02:00:00
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