I am like officially obese. I need to honestly lose 40 pounds. I disgust myself. No one is going to like me if I dont lose weight. I look so bad. My butt is so fat. LIke its ENORMOUS. Today im honestly going to try to not eat anything. I just feel like its gonna be hard cause i have to study for all of these exams and finals and stuff.

Anyways I need to lose weight because i like this guy name "Mike" (changed the name). It really sucks cause i dunno if he likes me. We have hooked up a few times, and he is really hott. I mean he could have anyone he wants so like if iget any fatter than he definitely won't like me. Im already freakin huge though. Like i have a double chin and all. Im going home for break soon and i really dont want to see anyone cause they will talk about how fat i have gotten. Im gonna starve myself when i go home so when i come back to school i will look good and surprise everyone.