woo, so far the only thing i have said is pictures. hm.
today we lost a baby tooth.

teeth are governed by capricorn and saturn, and lessons, and mores.

and i keep on thinking about darn, what was the first time it broke, but the second time it broke (well, the fix of it broke) was eating a jelly bean somewhere i really didnt want to be but ended up, and as usual, i dealt with it.  Never make a deal with the Devil.

 

  but then there are some things we do for love, and there are some things we learn about love, and doing the right thing changes as we get older....apparently i am still growing, still learning, still evolving.

i still have to learn how not to want to tell people to sit on it and spin, or when to tell the universe to sit on it and spin (is that why planets rotate? is that the reason for all this clock work, puncing in, puncing out?)

that is a molar by the way, well, half a molar, and apparently my wisdom teeth were vicious, but i could have told you about that without having the dentist remove them (my Bill is vicious when provoked)(and i remember my story of punti the black and shaggy adopted dog, who must have been abused cause when my father whipped his belt out of his jeans she scattered into the story cowering, some things, how do you recover from? its not really recovering, its re-pair repair, healing, made whole.....am i an animal not to understand this? what is it about us that remains animals? sometimes the spirit thinks anything to do with body is animal, but that is a less-on about snobbery....mine, land mine.  explosion (well a constant discussion anyways.....Know thyself.

last weeks lesson was about an eggplant, the monarchy of vegetables (so says wikipedia) and monarchs are butterflies and butterflies are evolution in this lifetime...

 

  eggplants are interesting 

so are strawberries, apples, pomegranites and tomatoes,.....peppers even, capiscum.

mo⋅lar1   /ˈmoʊlər/
–noun 1. Also called molar tooth. a tooth having a broad biting surface adapted for grinding, being one of twelve in humans, with three on each side of the upper and lower jaws.

–adjective 2. adapted for grinding, as teeth.
3. pertaining to such teeth. 

mo⋅lar2   /ˈmoʊlər/
–adjective Physics. pertaining to a body of matter as a whole, as contrasted with molecular and atomic.


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Origin:
1860–65; < L mōl(ēs) a mass + -ar 1
mo⋅lar3   /ˈmoʊlər/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [moh-ler] Show IPA
–adjective Chemistry. 1. pertaining to a solution containing one mole of solute per liter of solution.
2. noting or pertaining to gram-molecular weight.


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(dictionary.com)




pertaining to a body of matter as a whole, as contrasted with molecular and atomic.


Interesting.

 

Malachite




Apatite:

This mineral can be used to stimulate the intellect and to promote realization that ones strength occurs through both spiritual avenues and via love; hence dissolving aloofness and negativity.

the use of apatite while working with other crystals will facilitate results with greater ease since the apatite enhances and assures the "coming to results".

The mineral is also related to service and to the development of the humanitarian pursuits - it is attuned to healing, storing information, communicating, balancing energy, and teaching.

Apatite further enables one to both recognize and experience information which can be used individually and collectively.  One can use the mineral as an interface point, between teh consciousness and matter, in order to practically apply ones insight and powers of manifestation.  It is extremely useful in the expansion of knowledge and in the disclosure of teh "truth to freedom".

Apatite can help to integrate, to coordinate, and to balance the emotional, intellecutal,  physical and etheric bodies.  It can also help to eliminate over-activity, underactivity, blockage or congestion from any of the chakras.

It can be used to stimulate the development of clairvoyance, clairaudience, and the awareness of the devic worlds.  It can also furtehr the connection with UFOs and can provide access to past life insights and telepathy.

When applied with spiritual discipline, Apatite can be used to assist on in the development of deeper states of meditation and reflection, ying-yang balancing, raising of Kundalini energy, self insight, inner clarity, peace and oneness wiht the Higher Self.  The "no-mind" meditation is quite conducive to arriving with immediacy when apatite is used, and used with a candle meditation, one is sure to return at will (i.e., the return has been with ease and at the moment desired).

Apatite enhances creativity.  It is a "stone of the future" and will bring knowledge to those attuned to it by clearing mental confusion.  It truly awakens the finer, Inner self.

specific colours have specific effects.

 

appreciation again, shopping, waiting for the banker to sign another five year term at a good rate, but still a rate, irate, loving the little blue jammies i found, thinking in a good mood that these are the type of jammies that would make my brother comfortable, when standing in the right posture, sexy and still sister.

just right.
approachable.
(not that i am sleeping with my brother, but all Men and Boys are my Brother, as I am a Sister, a Mother, a Woman....all and nothing.)

and wonder why Mother-Sister bought me such a beautiful heavy blue lace agate necklace when i was buying the silver pendant pieces, too delicate i suppose she thought, or perhaps she thought blue is pretty and its a rock, who made me?  You all Make me, it seems....and I love you.  what are we doing to each other....Candle Quartz, as the wax melts away and we find ourselves....Fine.

Beautiful.

 

or(e) gold silver, all in the right place, blue, communication,
indigo, in i go? got the blues?

its not me, this is:

 

and how does that translate to a different lace, when its just all laces that i like, and not one in particular, so hard to appreciate it all, and pay everything appropriate attention when its all so beautiful and i'm constantly in Awe...unless im Sad, in which case its all Blue.

Black&Blue.

Black Caclite for Dark night of the soul.  Knight.  Shining.  Star.

 

its all so good, why am I crying...its all so good, I have it good and yet.
I want to be painting...

I Love each and every one of each and every one of everyone everyone,
but what i see....each time i see it....it sends me to a place where i am just so happy by myself, because no one is listening to....the things that drive them,

when they should be driving.

Why do you do the things you do?

Ask, and then look closely....and from far away, and on a slant, and through a glass darkly, and in the spotlight, and from each and every point of view.

And then be prepared.
(how to understand paranoia and still be in love).

(should I have said that?)
(was that a secret?)
(solving and dissolving at the same time)
(I am not swayed by external events)


(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)(I am not swayed by external events)...

...and i wonder why that beautiful blue lace agate necklace, with its blue pearls feels like a choker, how such beautiful rock could have turned into heavy nuggets, and wonder how to hold this up to the light so i can wear it proudly, in beauty.

(was that what you meant when you gave it to me?)


and those other two necklaces I bought?
long ago worn to bits, I wear things out I drive strong and hard,
its so hard to put that beside what we think is beautiful and say....

this is alright, this works together and it will last.

of course you meant you Love me.


I know that,
and still it hurts.

 

 (Goya by the way)

the philosophy that swims around us vainly, vaguely, shyly trying to Love, and express ourself....given all that we Know.


Is it you, or is it me, trying to live up to my own Expectations.  Or is it a little of both? right in the spot where we agree we are possibly uncomfortable, and don't bother to discover why, just pollute everything else with our....e-motion.


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