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My life is changing.

Big time.

I like change. I like being different. I like being “weird.” There's a part of me which will always be CRAZY. It's inherent in my very personality.

But you know what? Sometimes...I just want to be normal.

Will I ever be normal? I doubt it. I don’t think I was created to be normal. Who defines normal anyway?
Society? Media? The Church?

I can be whomever I want to be. It is completely my decision. Other people's actions may have an effect on me, but it is ultimately up to me how I react to them. How cool is that?!

I define my world.

I can choose to define it according to what the world deems "normal." Or I can define it by a different standard...truth maybe? What a concept.

Whose truth?

I choose to define my world according to the truth I have experienced. I have experienced the love of God, my Creator...and the grace of His Son. I have experienced peace when there should have been none, and hope when it seemed all was lost. I have been held when I am weeping and strengthened when I am weak.

I know who I want to be. I know what actions to take to become this person. What's taken me so long?

Fear? Pride? Laziness? Maybe all of the above.

I want to be a woman:
- of integrity
- with pure motives
- with a generous spirit
- who cares more about others than herself
- who allows God to romance her and fill her needs
- who oozes God's love
- who makes decisions based on truth, not emotion
- who makes things happen (good things)
- who people respect (even after they get to know me)
- who smiles and laughs and dances and rejoices in life
- who stands up for those who cannot stand
- who trusts that God has her best in mind
- who doesn't hide who she is
- who believes she was created for a purpose
- who believes God adores her and has a plan for her crazy, messed up self

Who do you want to be?