Thoughts.com Blogs - Doctrinal Position Statement

I finally got the results from my doctrinal position statement. I wrote 40 pages about what I believe and how it applies to my life. I was nervous about the "score" because I was pretty honest in the paper. I admitted that I am not sure where God will use me in the future, and that I have currently stepped down from ministry.

The results: Perfect.

It was an individual on the actual ordination committee who read and scored my paper. I don't have the scoresheet with me right now, but when I do I may put up some quotes of what she wrote. Basically she said I am an excellent writer and express my thoughts in a meaningful way. She also said that she believes I am very special and God will use even my divorce to enhance my ministry in the future.

It was pretty cool.

It helped the day not suck completely. I am still upset about not getting the USAA job. I think it's ridiculous. But, I have been looking into the police academy. The one in Norfolk doesn't have a new class until January. But the one in Suffolk (close by) has one starting in August. Shawn could get me temp work until then with his employer. But Alicia (thoughts.com/farsidde) thinks they won't accept me.

She might be right. I do tend to have some medical issues. But none which cannot be "fixed" by medicine. The psychological issues are a little different. I'm not insane or anything, and I'm pretty sure I could pass the psych eval, but I do take medicine for OCD and depression. They might not take too kindly to that. But I think it would be pretty sweet. I've always wanted to go to the police academy. Ever since those darn movies - yeah, right.

So...that is possibly one option for employment once I move. I asked my mom to ask around about any openings her friends might hear about. Maybe there's a connection at church.

You know, there's a fine line between giving something up to God and just not doing anything about it. I think as Christians we tend to think if we "let go and let God" everything will work out.

But it just reminds me of the guy on the rooftop:
There was a big flood and as the waters rose people were advised to evacuate. Emergency personnel in a boat knocked on the door of a fundamentalist christian as the water lapped at his step he said "I'll stay - God will protect me." Later that night he was sitting on his roof as the water lapped his gutters when a boat came by with people yelling for him to come to safety, he replied "God will save me." The next morning the man was standing on his very roof top with his head barely above water when a rescue chopper arrived. A rope ladder was lowered down but the man said "God will save me." With that he was washed away. When he got to heaven he asked God, "Why when I have so much blind faith in you did you leave me to die?" God replied "Listen buddy, what more did you want? I sent two boats and a freaking helicopter!"

Now I only have one question for you - would God really say the word freaking?

Ok, that really wasn't the point of the story. The point is - do something. I taught a lesson once on, "What to do when you don't know what to do?" The first thing - Do something. God doesn't just want us to sit around on rooftops and wait for Him to extend a hand, or give us an awesome job, or tell us what we're supposed to do with our lives. He made us with distinct personalities - likes and dislikes - and He did that for a reason (maybe He was half-sleeping when He made me). He wants us to use what we have. Do everything you can - but don't ignore God in the process.

Yeah, it's a fine line. And I don't have all the answers. So - I do the thing which seems to make the most sense.

I pray.

And when I wake up in the morning He has written a note and put it under my pillow saying..."Did you really think an answer was going to come this easily?"