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What if i can't do it? Or don't figure out how to? What if i'm not cut out the the supposed "good life"?
What will forever be known to my friends as the "aussie day slip-up" is my failure to quit. My lack of ambition to suceed.
I shouldn't have done it on aussie day justifying it with "I'm on holiday, it's a special occasion, i won't do it when i get back to perth".
I don't even enjoy it anymore.. The moment i start to get the effects i spiral down into a depression and begin to hate myself for it. I don't know how i manage to keep doing if i know it only upsets me.. I lie to myself i guess, i always manage to convince myself that "Nah, i'll enjoy it this time" "i won't get depressed, i'll be high". BULLSHIT. being high does not stop an addict from getting upset! However told you that lied.
ADDICTION SUCKS. Anybody who's reading this and is beginning to use casually, regularly, or is planning to.. Don't, stay posted and see what goes on inside and addicts head, and then think about it.
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Posted by paraZia on 2008-01-29 08:37:26 | Rating: | Views: 72
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