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So my life has a way to make everyday interesting, and i seem to attract people who do the same.. I hate drama.. but am surrounded 24/7, and every move i make is in the hope i will find a way out of it all.
It's now 14:00, and i've been calling my boyfriend, Jay (yes, the one from Geraldton based blogs), all morning.. Thinking he was ignoring me, not picking up his mobile, or home phone. After last night, it was a safe assumption to make.
We were out last night with a group of friends, and one minute he was fine, the next he wouldn't look me in the eyes, talk to me, he would get angry at me for trying to hold his hand, and when i was dropped off, he didn't even turn to me, say goodbye, kiss me, or tell me he loved me.. Nothing, just cold silence.
I get a call about 20 minutes ago from him, i ask how he is and ask him why he hasn't been answering his phone all morning.. He goes on to tell me he overdosed last night and has spent the past 14-15 hours in Joondalup hospital having his stomach pumped, heart monitored and basically, revived.
His mum found him at around 2am, passed out, bottle in hand, smoke in mouth, next to many pescriptions drugs, and a razor on the bench next to him..
How could he go on knowing he was about to do that, and not hold my hand, kiss me or tell me he loves me? I'm not asking for them all, but he was planning on leaving the world without even some confirmation for me.. I'm not being selfish, i just find it sad. It makes me think we have deeper problems, each, and together..
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