It's funny how sometimes you can read people so wrong, or trust in things people say, and although you know deep down, they won't pull through, or that your only making a mistake by trusting them.. And we all still make this mistake, letting our hearts define the game, not our heads..

I've been on the phone with Damo, a friend of mine and Jay's.. He is a wonderful guy, does some stupid stuff sometimes, but has a good heart.. We spoke about Jay, I mentioned everything he's been doing.. Calling me to start fights at whatever i say, and then making it my fault.. Texting me constantly and asking to hang out, only to cancel plans last minute, which is fine, because after the first few times i realised exactly how much bullshit and mind f*cks he's trying to pull, and started playing him back in a way.. He'd ask me to hang out, i would say yes, but never intend to, souly because if i said no, or claimed i was busy too many times he would turn around and have a go at me for that.. So i played along, and gave him the satisfaction of "winning".. Damo confirmed my theories of Jay doing all this, not out of good reason, or just plain old heart break.. He is doing it to intentionally fuck me around, he thinks i fucked him over so many times in the past, while we were dating, that it's his turn to fuck me over.. What he doesn't realise is, as much as what he is doing is painful in some sense, knowing that someone i loved so much could try to do this to me, but overall, i don't care. I know the score, i know what i did for him, and what he didn't do for me, i know i never cheated, lied or fucked him around intentionally, and i know he has been less than honest to me in the past.. If he wants to turn me into the bad guy so he can feel better, fine, do it, but he hasn't just lost me, he's loosing other people's respect in the process.. Damo wants nothing to do with him, he's being plain disrespectful to all the people who ever really helped him out.

On a brighter note, i went out with Monte and John last night to a party, i ended up staying up all night at Monte's just talking, and catching up on each others lives and where we've been, it's amazing how fast you can get back into such a tight friendship, without much contact for some time.