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This snow is beating me down...

I have shoveled at least 100" of snow. If it was piled in one 12"x12" square, it wouldn't be too bad, however it was spread out on my driveway, in front of my mailbox, on the deck on the roof and many other inconvenient places where it HAD to be moved for the sake of daily living. We have had one storm after the other, sometimes four in a week! I am so t-i-r-e-d, the only thing I can move is my fingers without groaning. Sleep does not come easily with my daughter being up several times a night, however now I have the addition of all my limbs throbbing, aching and feeling like electricity is coursing through them from shoveling so much. The other day we finally got our deck 75% cleared of the 6"+ of solid ice, and the several feet of crusted frozen snow. Then we had to clear it again from all the snow we pulled down off our roof. We have a leak in our family room on the bottom floor because the water has no place to go and we were afraid our deck would collapse. It's all too much. I feel guilty for not being able to finish the driveway today. My husband went to work for 4 hours, he had to back up several times to get out as our driveway has a slant to it, which in turn packed down the snow. I shoveled the entire driveway and the mailbox, but could not muster the energy to scrap the snow off the drive where he packed it down with the tires. It must be scraped otherwise it melts a bit and we only spin and cannot get out of our drive. Then the blasted plow truck came along and plowed the end of our driveway in...again. I couldn't finish. My dear husband will have to park in the road and shovel the snow and scrape the drive. I couldn't do it, for fear of collapsing where I stood. Did I also say my 23 mo. old was screaming bloody murder while I was doing all this, and my 7 y/o was whining because she wanted to play rather than help.

My husband asked me to clean the 2 upstairs bathrooms today, the floors especially. I can't do it, I cannot get on my hands and knees to clean them after hauling the vacuum up, cleaning them up and cleaning the counters, etc.. I just don't have it in me. I cleaned the kitchen earlier and put things away, I have fed and taken care of the children, played a game with my 7 y/o while the other napped, I physically cannot do anything else.

Did I say I have a bad back too? I have a lumbar herniated disc and then I fell on the ice 2 weeks ago, which is causing me additional pain. I've been having to take a narcotic the last two days because of the increased pain. It is a last resort, I only take a half tablet once or twice, so I'm not knocked out.

I am whining, well maybe, but also venting. Don't beat up on my dh, he does his fair share of shoveling, and always tells me to go inside, or stop because he knows it's bad for my back. However, I am stubborn and insist on helping more. I also fear he will keel over from a heart attack! I push myself when I shouldn't. I forget I'm not 20 and in perfect physical shape.