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I often wonder if I was really made to be a parent. My first husband did not want children. We divorced after giving him 17 years of my life; 17 of the best years of my life, the most fertile years, the most energetic years, the years of my youth. Several months later I became pregnant a single parent. It went well. I survived. Years later I remarried, had another child. this one is a challenge. Trying my patience, a toddler with attitude. The older one now 7 testing the waters. I don't have the patience for this. What the hell was I thinking? I feel like I'm in a movie, playing the character of the good wife, the patient mother, when the cameraman yells, "cut" I want to cut loose, push everyone aside and say, "I'm outa here, have fun". However, it's not the reality of my life, I have two children, one husband, a dog and a fish and a house that is forever in need of decluttering. I'm tired of picking up toys that I just put away 5 minutes ago, being caregiver, nurse, cook, laundry attendee, sex slave (ok, maybe not, but hell it sure feels that way sometimes) subservient to all. Is this what my life is? Of COURSE!
Am I done whining yet? For now.
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Posted by over40 on 2008-01-25 20:33:55 | Rating: | Views: 73
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Does your husband read your blog? Does he know you feel this way?
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Posted by FigureCompetingMom
on 2008-01-25 21:02:42
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Have you thought about maybe taking a class or two at your local college? Just a little something that's for you, to help you feel better.
Or...have you considered counseling, both by yourself and with your husband? Sometimes, the stress from motherhood can get to be overwhelming, and taking time out for yourself, and maybe working through your emotions with a professional and or your husband.
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Posted by wee_star
on 2008-01-26 06:40:34
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