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Alone staring into space! Explicit Content
I spend most of my life staring into space, Wondering how this pain in my heart will ever be erased. I want to believe this is going to get better, I long to feel that this wont last forever. Right now I feel like a waste of space, Like I'm stealing oxygen because my life is a waste.......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-28 15:26:51 | Rating:

| Views: 37 | Comments: 0 | Tags: poem thoughts alone sadness pain life

Broken Affair
I never knew the pain this would cause, I guess I felt I could keep it under control. Every day I'm getting deeper and deeper. As my feet stick down in the sand, the hill out looks unbelievably steeper. The bed I lay in is of my own making, It was my heart I put on the line so can I......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-22 16:32:58 | Rating:

| Views: 93 | Comments: 1 | Tags: poem love affair thoughts broken hearted

Quiet wonderings.....
There are so many things that fill my mind, So many questions- Perhaps I have too much time? When I stop my mind overloads, My past, my present, my future- So much remains untold! I wonder how I got here? Or where I will be? I wonder what the signs are? Or am I too blind to......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-22 16:26:05 | Rating:

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Lost and alone
Feeling so lost and alone, No friends, no comfort. Hate never knowing what to do. How to make my dreams come true. I can't keep fighting the same old fight. It's too dark in here. Stumbling for the light. I can't keep feeling the same old pain. I hurt so much sometimes,......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-09 14:51:22 | Rating:

| Views: 38 | Comments: 2 | Tags: poem lost alone tears

Questions??????
So I dont know what Im doing, I dont know where Im going, I dont know how Im going to get there???? However most of the time I still manage to smile about it all. Today is not one of those days, I want someone to give me a hug and tell me its all doing to be ok. Right now Im not sure it will......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-02 04:19:20 | Rating:

| Views: 40 | Comments: 3 | Tags: life thoughts confusion

When did it become ok? Explicit Content
When did it become ok to treat me so bad? When was it alright to break my heart? To make me sad? When was it ok to make my life a joke? To walk a ll over me? Take the XXXXX? All unprovoked? Why do you think its alright to make me cry? To make up lies just to watch my......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-21 17:15:09 | Rating:

| Views: 35 | Comments: 0 | Tags: poem life pain hurting

Worst week!
I had a terrible week last week. Came back from a week off feeling positive and ready to progress but that was before some cow made a false allegation against me. Now I work with kids so this is a very very big deal. Thankfully my manager saw it as a false allegation as the statements taken off......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-17 05:53:06 | Rating:

| Views: 22 | Comments: 1 | Tags: life thoughts career game playing

No light!
These thoughts go round and round in my mind, Always working, always tired. Trying to solve the pain in my heart, Trying to find answers, but where to start? I don't always want to feel the same, Never knowing who's really to blame, Sick of feeling like I don't belong, Sick of......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-08 03:14:17 | Rating:

| Views: 25 | Comments: 0 | Tags: poem thoughts fears

Sick of users!!!!!!! Explicit Content
I hate how people just keep walking over me at the moment. All I am trying to do is help people out and they take advantage of me. Makes me wonder why I bother helping? What benefit is ther...Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-29 13:03:47 | Rating:

| Views: 51 | Comments: 6 | Tags: life thoughts users angry

Why do I do this to myself?
Why do I let myself be used? Picked up, thrown away, abused? Why don't I allow loves grace, To fill me up and take its place. Why do I do this to myself? All this sadness is bad for my health, But I don't know how to exist, When wrapped in loves bliss. Will I always have......Read More