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The Day the Sun Came Out...continued

Oh hell, mom/grandma's drunk again. She was sitting outside watching Axel swim with the kids when I went out to smoke. I said, "I thought you were going to cook tonight." just wondering really when I needed to get the mop. Well, she acted like the cooking thing was my idea by saying, "I don't want to cook. Why should I? I'm sick of it." Okay then I could tell by her speech right there and then that she had picked up a great big bottle of wine. I should have known too because anytime for as long as I can remember she always get drunk before she visits my sister. My sister you see doesn't put up with any shit from anybody. She has it made with a beautiful brand new home on 5 acres. She has two kids ages 6 and almost 4 and a husband that makes alot of money. She doesn't tolerate drinking in her home or fighting or cussing or anything out of what she considers "normal, decent" behavior and she will point blank boot your ass out the door if you're not complying. This is why she never comes to our house to visit. Personally, where I have to let real shit just roll off my back and out the door, she can go to the other extreme. I think they call it anal. But I guess that's what happens to kids who grow up in a very weird environment with very sick parents. It will be interesting down the road to see which of our kids fair better when it comes to growing up in the real world. Once I get out of here, I'm certain mine will have the advantage, not that I'd ever wish hers any problems. Our parenting styles are as different as night and day though and she has been known to critisize me for mine which just rings of I'm right and your wrong. Axel is her real father so I guess that's why they get along so well. He is never wrong either about anything, good grief. The last time we visited was last Easter and her oldest son at 6 years old refused to gather any eggs from the Easter Bunny. She said he had a social problem whatever that means. Her kids are so well behaved, trains them just like she does her horses I guess, they don't dare even speak up. It never feels good when your child talks back to you but then on the other hand atleast my children aren't scared to voice their opinions. I don't know what she does to keep hers so docile, you'll never see them running around the house like wild animals. Mine, she says are undisicplined, whatever, their spirits are intact that's for sure. We take life as it comes and go with the flow and sometimes that gets noisy. As it is, I'd trade places with her in less than half a second. Anyway that explains why mom is drunk. Unfortunately, it also means that mom and Axel will have a knock down drag out verbal fight that we will have to listen to, even if from a distance. We will be upstairs in our room and suddenly I won't mind that the TV volume is on full blast. The fights are always the same. Mom will come out babbling about any variety of topics that suggest that Axel has screwed up her whole life. Or she will just talk about something that's irritating because in fifteen minutes she will have said the same thing over and over again atleast fifteen times and Axel will lose it. The ending is always the same. Axel will scream, "Shut the blank up you stupid blank. You drunk blank blank. Shut the blank up. Go back in your room. You are a stupid blank blank." Same words everytime screamed as loud as possible will make her retreat eventually. She might come out again in 20 minutes or so and the whole scene will replay itself. What a nightmare! She should know by now like I do that it's no use trying to argue with him. Nothing she does or says will ever make her right in his eyes. He doesn't like her and he doesn't even love her. So sad that when we're gone, him and her crazy son is all she'll have left. She may say that she doesn't want us here but it won't be true. She's going to miss the hell out of me and my kids, Axel too. Who will do the dishes then? Oh well, on the bright side, she's not cooking so I guess I won't have to get out the mop after all.