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Ack, I use to be happy, when I came on here. But, I really thought
comin' to Nova Scotia, would make me feel better. Inwhich it did, for a bit.
I'm no longer in birth control pills, and it seems that I got my
sex drive back and Adam is happy about that. Yes, I'm still on my Rheumtoid Arthersis pills, and my Anti Depressants pills.
It started about last mid week, I believe. I just find myself strugglin' more and more each day. Like everythin' I do, takes a little more motivation to get into...
Well, I just called my supervisor back in Ottawa (7:32am), I prayed that she'd pick up and she did. She asked me how I was doin'?...I started to cry, I said 'not good, I'm strugglin' here, to keep goin', I already skipped out of work on Saturday'...
She said 'Oh no...' But, if it wasn't Val helpin' me out this past year with my seasonal depression, I would no longer be with HBC. I have her to thank. But, she told me to call her anytime no matter what time.
This is not a cry for help, I don't want you to feel sorry for me, but this year I'm goin' to fight it. I'm goin' to make it too work every single day from now on...
No matter if I start cryin'...
Well, I have nothin' more to say, right now...but best wishes to you Bullseye...I hope you don't feel that you need to 'write' somethin' everyday. It's not a obligations...LOL
Even though somedays you feel like it is...
Oh ya, on a better note...I'm finally out of my overdraft, it took me a year or so to get out of it. I got back pay from my Reserve yesterday for $1000.00. 750 went to Chequin'and 250 to Visa, my next payday I will be out of Visa...
It's good to be an Indian, and comin' from a rich reserve.
All my best, someone please send some sun my way...
OLP  '08
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Posted by olp76 on 2008-01-08 07:54:39 | Rating: | Views: 79
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BTW...I was adopted into a white family, when I was baby. So, I don't have any experience or languages of my reservation life...
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Posted by olp76
on 2008-01-08 07:56:59
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I know how you are feelin', I've been going through the same deal lately. It's nice to get it all out on here.
If you get some sunshine, please pass some my way as well! :)
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Posted by Mandie142
on 2008-01-08 13:19:05
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Which tribe/group?
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Posted by ladiegodiva
on 2008-01-08 21:20:39
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My aboriginal background is 'Objiway' & my band is Grassy Narrows Reserve, in Grassy Narrows, Ont
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Posted by olp76
on 2008-01-08 21:47:49
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Fighting what brings you down will make you stronger than drowning in those tears. Good luck and stay strong.
Namaste
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Posted by scotslad60
on 2008-01-10 09:46:36
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