Oh my god, seriously i'm in such a dilema!! Ok let me just give you a quick history lesson. I met this bloke, dated him, then we got engaged. I was extremly young, and very naiive when he popped the question, i was about 16. Anways, 9 months down the line, and a 1,000000 arguments later we decided it wasn't working, and went out seperate ways. We slept with eachother occasionally, more of his idea than mine. So up that point we remained friends, stayed in contact, and had sex.
A few weeks after we broke it off, he met this woman, well she wasn't just any woman and he hadn't just met her, she was his best mates wife. Anwyas they had an affair. According to my ex, it wasn't a problem for him to go and backstab his best mate, cause apparently his best mate had been having women on the side all the way through his marrige. She left her husband, and my ex (i'm still talking about the one i was engaged to) and her made their relationship public.
Ok i admitt my ego was extremly bruised when i found out they were together. People would come up to me in the middle of the street and ask if i was ok with all of this. So i went away for a while, decided i needed a break from what was going on. I wasn't all that upset, i just got used to it, and when i came back, i was ok with it. I still didnt know where to look when they passed me in the middle of the street. I knew the only thing that could cure me, was a rebound so that's what i did. A few rebounds later and i was a whole new person.
Then came the bombshell. She was pregnant with his child. Now that did hurt. He always talked about having children with me, we used to sit up and talk about what we'd call them, and the dirty dog went ahead and got her pregnant. I was like aww congratulations to their faces, and slag them off behind closed doors. I eventually got over it, calmed down and realised, i could hate them all i wanted, but i'd be wasting my enegry, so i accepted it and moved on at long last.
But again things didnt go my way. They realised they jumped into things way to quickly, and they split up. The first person he conatcetd was me. I was a bit cold with him at first, wasn't really that interested with his personal life. Then he started to pursuade me to go go round there for chats, but lets just say we never really talked that much. Things started complicating again, he kept addmitting he still had feelings for me, you know that he was still holding a torch. I would have jumped at the chance, but he still had a child on the way. And the fact that she was pregnant bulit a barrier between us.
I stopped going round there as often, everytime he tried it on with me, i pushed him further and further away from me. He never got over me, didn't matter how much i tried he kept coming back for more. But by being so distant with him, the feelings i had for him subsided, and slowly i got over him. Now i can't tell him that at the moment because his life if crashing all around him, the woman that's carrying his child, well her husband his back, and seriously he's seeing red!! And he's made her stop all contact with the true father of the baby.
Well that's the story so far, and my god it's a complicated one, i don't know how long i can contain the situation before it blows up in my face. The last thing i want to do is hurt him, even though he's hurt me in the past, i just don't wanna sink to his level. If he carries on trying to win me back, i might have to.
