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I have two unresolved medical issues. I won't go into details because you really don't want to hear about them. You think you do, but you don't. Trust me. You'll forget you even read this by tomorrow morning and then somewhere in the day you'll hear something that triggers a memory of it and you'll be frustrated because you can't remember where you read something about it. So, let's just stick with generalities. Basically my problems relate to my ovaries and my colon. None of them are working properly at the moment and it's unclear if the two are linked. Whatever is going on is leaving me very tired and very weak and I'm afraid all this fatigue is throwing me into depression as well. So let's make it three unresolved issues. I am so tired that sometimes I just can't even handle the sound of a client's voice in the room. Or someone starts laughing about something and I just have to walk away because I just don't care. The noise bothers me so much I just want to find a quiet place to escape. But since those moments happen in the office I can't exactly do that without someone noticing. So I suck it up and wait for more test results. Still tired. The problem is the unknown. I'm still in the early stages of both of my diagnoses and it's the unknowns that are getting me down. I'm not obsessing over the symptoms, thankfully. They are overt. But I am concerned about the courses of treatment and the long term ramifications of the choices I make to heal my body. I am impatient to feel better but want to weigh all the options before choosing a course that may one day lead to regret. But I want a resolution and finding the patience to wait for it is hard for me. For anyone who is sick, I'm sure. But for now I will just go to bed early to rest up for another long day tomorrow. And I'll start it again. One day at a time I guess. One day at a time.
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Posted by ohigetit on 2008-02-25 21:58:15 | Rating: | Views: 64
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Stress can cause so much physical pain, you are going to have to try to put some joy in your life, although you have nothing to laugh about, laughter is the best medicine. It increases your immune system and really aids in healing. Why dont your rent some funny movies, and try to improve your mindset. Naturally you are feeling depressed and it will only get worse if you dont focus on something else.
It is so easy to give advice, I know, but I have done alot of research on laughing and its benefits. I have also had alot of health issues and some, believe it or not, were entirely stress related. I will keep you in my prayers. Good luck!
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Posted by roe
on 2008-04-08 22:40:36
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