i was hanging out with a friend the other day and we got on the subject of marriage. im not sure how but something was said about it and my friends little sister says that she never wants to get married. i asked her why and she said she doesnt believe in it. that got me thinking. now on one hand not wanting to get married and not believing in it would save her from a lot of pain and trouble but on the other hand she would never experience all the good things that can come from marriage. i think about all of this and then i think about what i believe. i believe in marriage but i believe in what seems to be the fairytale marriage, one that actually lasts until our dying days. now i know that the marriage i believe in actually exists but its rare, very rare. statistically when you marry young you wont make it through the first couple years, also statistically most people are waiting until they are much older to get married. there is nothing wrong with waiting, i mean in todays world everyone isnt willing to settle down for various reasons. i wont be getting married until i know im with the right person and if i can help it i would rather not get divorced, see i told you its all a fairytale, and if for some reason i do get divorced then i dont want to get married again. i know i say this all now but i wonder if i will actually stick to it when im older. anyways back to my friends little sister, i said it would cause her less pain and trouble but then again pain is part of life and you learn so much from it. you might even be able to learn the same amount from just being in different relationships, im not sure. i think this all has to do with her mom because her mom was married at one point but obviously got divorced. maybe it had a really big affect on her, i dont know all the details so i could be very wrong. we are each our own person and we determine our beliefs from observing others and hearing what they have to say about it and then we make our decision. i have to say i was very impressed by her belief because she is only 14 and sometimes i wish i could be like that because it seems like since im a hopeless romantic im always getting hurt. i have learned a lot from it but i think maybe im not tough enough to not get emotionally attached to people so easily. when it comes down to it the faster you get  attached to people the faster you are going to get hurt and at some point you get sick of being hurt. i think thats where im at right now, im sick of being hurt. im already at the point where i dont like to let others in and hardly anyone knows everything ive been through. ive had bad experiences with letting people in. i dont depend on anyone either because as soon as i start to they always end up leaving so i figure the only person you can depend on is yourself. if anyone has any thoughts on marriage i would like to hear them. 
-notyouraveragegirl-