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| Day 2 of Getting Over You |
We dated for three years exclusively and when I decided that he wasn't a Christian and I couldn't date him anymore we broke up. I still loved him and he still loved me. We dated on and off for the next two in a half years. This past month I decided that it didn't matter anymore, non of it. I loved him and wanted to be with him. He said he loved me and wanted to be with me, we decided we were going to be more then friends untill I could come home and talk about what the next step was. The problem was he had already started taking a girl out on dates. The day before I was supposed to come see him he took her out again and asked her where things were going. She said she had a romantic interest in him. So he said things couldn't happen between us right now.
I broke down, I love him so much and I'm the reason were not together right now. I'm supposed to be in his arms today, kissing and hugging him and instead I have this huge hole in my chest. He's the only man I ever trusted and the only man I've ever truely loved. I don't know what to do with myself. I've tried to date other ben, but non of them compare to him. My roommates all tell me its for the best but I really don't think so. I deleted him on facebook, I deleted my AIM program, I deleted skype (the program we used to talk to each other for hours every day). Hes the person I would go to for anything, he was my best friend.
So now I'm angry, hurt, scared, upset, and miserable; and its day two of this experience. I want to stop wishing he will show up on my doorstep and proffess his love, telling me he made the biggest mistake not chooseing me, but I know he wont. So this is why it's day two and its also why I'm not his girl. I pray someday some one else comes along but untill then I'm a wreck and I don't know what else to do but to write down my feelings and pray there is more out there then him.
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Posted by noturgirl21 on 2009-10-31 13:03:40 | Rating: | Views: 45
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