Well, it was a suprise he came home today. He wasn't supposed to be here for another couple days if then. I think he knew all along he was coming home and was trying to suprise me. It worked. i was with his folks grabbing some lunch  and we heard the door open. WE all kinda looked around but now I think on it, everyone already knew he was coming home. I was so excited to see him. Untill I saw all the guys walking in too. I guess I was glad to see him but when i did I was hoping it was just HIM and not THEM too. For the past few months since all this started I've hardly seen him away from them. Which is paying off but hell its hard. I would like some time to make love to my man but I never get that. It's been weeks since I've had alone time with him.
He only stuck around for about an hour today and then was gone. Thought he was hitting the road but found out he was just going around town saying hey to everyone. Kinda made me a litle upset cause I was trying to get him to come see my family. They were very excited he was back in town and wanted to see him and the group too. but for some reason he wanted no part of it. I don't understand it. He tells me he loves me, he calls me everytime he can but everytime he is in town I barely see him. I understand he wants to see every one too but what if I want some time for just him and i.... am I selfish for wanting that? I don't think I am but for some reason a part of me feels I am.... I'm really hating this band thing.... But at least it makes him happy right?