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I remember when I was a kid, I was so hopeful. I, like all children, could not wait to be an adult and do what I wanted. Little did I know at the age of 28 I’d be questioning what that was exactly? I have never felt more lost. Just 3 years ago while I was still in college I was very goal oriented and hopeful for what was to come once I graduated. Now I wonder where that optimistic girl has gone.
With only 3 months left in the year, 2009, I am determined to figure out what that is and not start a new year just going through the motions. I need to start living with a purpose. I think the key to success in life is to be goal oriented and I haven’t had goals for quite some time now.
One thing I do have going for me is I do not believe in failure. What that means to me is yes you can fail, but only after you try. So I always try. I will never be depressed either, I just won’t allow it. I feel there are worse things in the world and God never gives you more than you can handle. So whatever I am going through, no matter how rough, I can make it through. As Iylana Vanzant said this is just my meantime. So I have to work my way through it. When I come out on the other side I will be stronger and better for it. I just really want that other side to show up soon.
The first question people always ask me when I say I am lost, is “What do you like to do?” So I will spend the next how ever long it takes exploring that.
What do I like to do? What brings me joy? What gives me the highest sense of satisfaction? I decided to first tackle this by making a list of everything, everything I like to do and see where it takes me. Have to trust the process, even if I am making it up as I go.
Cook
Organize things
Clean
Plan
Plan parties
Make people happy
creativity
traveling
visiting family
analyzing data
solving problems
research
writing research papers
Then I asked my best friend what I am good at. Here is her list
Organizing
Planning
Scheduling
Saving
Crafts/do-it-yourself projects
I thought it was interesting that we had some similar items. I think those are probably my core strengths as well as things I like to do. Especially if someone else thinks it’s what I am good at, I think focusing on finding something that those 2 things are a major part of will make me very happy. And now the hard part, finding out what that is.
    Posted by nominivanforme on 2009-10-12 18:42:03 | Rating: | Views: 12
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Humans have a need to occupy there mind...to challenge them selves. You have to find within you the inner peace to appreciate the gifts of living. You are an indivisual soul, that can do and become, grow, manifest,love, laugh, enjoy life. You also have those you are not so lucky, they are sick, addics, hungry, blind, missing limbs, so on. you are peafectly healthy and is not happy. you may need to grow from within first before you reap your worldly rewards. Society plays games on us, which they will make you feel like life is not worth living if you dont join there slavery rountine to keep you busy from learing the truth. you should be stronger than that. Life is about living not about what you can produce and that was the great fall that adam and eve in the beggining. (if you know what i mean)
Posted by  theLOSTstar  on 2009-10-12 19:04:14 
  
I'd be interested to see your thoughts on my first post when I add one to the category called Motherhood (hopefully tomorrow). Life is about living and I am not sure about how I need to grow from within. I just want to like what I do on a daily basis. I understand and appreciate that there are people worse off than I. But that doesn't mean I can't still feel how I feel. I could give in an accept that this is my job and just have a baby like I want to now or try and define me before I bring someone else into this.
Posted by  nominivanforme  on 2009-10-15 17:59:09 
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