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Gorgeous woman: What kind of idiot are you?
Johnny Bravo: I don't know, what kinds are there?
Good night, good night.
It's 1:00 am and I just walked through the door...again.
Mandy and I went out for dinner tonight, child free. We went to O'charleys. We actually sat in the resturant for about an hour after we'd finished eating. We just sat there talking about pretty much everything. I discussed my up coming graduation from college and how nervous I am about buying a house. We talked about how she loved her job and wants to go back to take some business classes and maybe open up her own salon someday. Told her how much I wish I could focus on my future as much as she did. She said if I wasn't so indecisive that I'd probably bore her because we'd be too much alike. Funny how the trait that use to irritate her has become the one she likes to most. *shrugs*
I reminded her that I wasn't going to be able to take TC tomorrow because I have a meeting with my realtor and mortgage broker tomorrow after work. She laughed and started in on how she tried telling TC that but he doesn't believe her. She said he had told her "No, daddy always comes." That made me feel pretty bad, that I'm going to be letting him down. She told me not to think too much into it because it's the first scheduled day with him I've had to miss since I was in the hospital last year. She said it's better than most fathers and I shouldn't beat myself up over missing one day. But I couldn't help it because it's not just one day. It's Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and every other weekend that I miss. We decided that the sudden depressing conversation was our key to leave. As we were driving back to my apartment, she started picking at me by saying.
"Wow, I'm surprised you didn't even ask if I wanted to go out for drinks. Does that mean you're not going to get me drunk and take advantage of me?"
"I don't need to load you up on alcohol in order to talk you into bed with me."
"Oh...really?"
When we got back to the apartment, we hung out on the couch and talked. She started in on serious conversation...like how I feel about her. She talked about how much the list meant to her and how she was surprised by it because it's something I normally wouldn't do. I told her that I hated that list because it haunted me so much. And that I did it because it's the one thing I could think of that she'd ever asked me for and I felt like an ass and a failure for not giving it to her when it actually counted. She says it still counts. Thank God. I sat silently and listened as she told me exactly how she feels about all of this. I kept quiet for awhile and finally asked...
"So, does that mean you can try to love me again?"
"I don't have to try because I've always loved you and never stopped. You didn't love me when we got married, I know that but honestly, honey, I've always been crazy about you."
I could feel my face growing red and I looked down at her hands in mine. I don't know what it is but I still nervous and a little shy around her especially with conversations like this. I started having an mental battle with myself and I know I was driving her crazy because I kept looking up at her then looking back down. And that song...that stupid song filled my head...
"What're you thinking, Noah?"
"Sha-la-la-la, my, oh, my, you got the boy to shy...ain't gonna kiss the girl."
She laughed at me. "You've kissed me hundreds of times...what's the problem?"
"Yea, Mandy, and everytime I do it scares the shit out of me. I don't know why. I feel like hyperventalating or something but I sure do want to kiss you."
"Would it be easier if I just kiss you?"
"Nah, I think I got this."
I got up the courage and kissed her. And kissed her. And kissed her. And kissed her. Then made love to her.
Around midnight, she woke me up from the spot we'd curled up on the floor next to each other. She told me she needed to leave and that she'd stayed too late. I pulled my pants back on and walked her out to her car. We opened the car door for her to get in. She started her car and stood back up to hug me goodbye. But I'd gotten brave by then and decided to go in for another kiss. So, the kissing continued until around 12:30 when she finally pushed me away.
"I love you, Noah."
"Love you too, darlin."
I walked back into my apartment after she drove away and now here I sit. Wide awake and my mind replaying all of it, over and over again. I should sleep but I really am not seeing that happening anytime soon. |
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Posted by noahseth on 2008-06-25 01:39:04 | Rating: | Views: 103
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The thing that you have to look forward to is getting to know each other all over again. Even though you do but you will have a different persective now than before. And it is the little things that you once felt were unbearable will now be the thing that you love more about Mandy.
I am glad you had a good night and I hope that you will have many more like this one to come.
Ohh and on a lighter note, I bet I know you are thinking about now LOL.
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Posted by KP
on 2008-06-25 01:58:31
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Opps that is meant to read,
"I think I know WHAT you are thinking about now". LOL
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Posted by KP
on 2008-06-25 01:59:33
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Hey Noah.. this is a really "cute" post.
You're allowed to kiss Mandy now... remember!!! She'd be expecting you to! .....lol
nice post.
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-06-25 09:48:56
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Awwww that was like a movie scene!
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Posted by smileforthecamera
on 2008-06-25 10:58:14
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Noah
You are a lucky man
You found the love of your life and let her slip through you fingers and then she ended back in your arms
DO NOT BLOW THIS!!!!
I am rooting for you
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Posted by whiteknight
on 2008-06-25 11:34:12
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always gets me smiling Noah! you guys are soooo cute. :) I'm happy for you.
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Posted by Katydids_and_daisies
on 2008-06-25 11:40:23
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That was a great post man... I anjoyed reading it. It seems you will have a good thing going.
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Posted by DouglasMB
on 2008-06-25 13:04:44
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That is so cute. I am glad that you two are getting along so well... and good job for kissing her! Now that song is stuck in my head.
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Posted by KarKar
on 2008-06-25 13:05:07
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aww.. that is so sweet!
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Posted by country_girl
on 2008-06-26 07:25:33
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