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My Daughter

I know I just wrote about my daughter, but if I am being honest, 99% of my random thoughts and prayers are about my children. I just wrote yesterday about the joy that fills my heart when I think of my children.

My daughter successfully made it through her last full day of elementary school. I never doubted that she would. I spent most of the morning crying and wishing she was little again. Then I spent the afternoon in prayer, thanking God for such a beautiful daughter, who has done so well with her life, and I know the best is yet to come!

I would like to think that I am always ready for whatever God has in store for me. Use me Lord, use me to glorify you - whatever that may be Lord, just use me. That is my prayer, but is that really how I feel? Would I really come to the plate when God called me? What if he decided to use me through an illness or death of one of my children?

I was saddened this morning to read about Steven Curtis Chapman and the death of his 5 year old daughter. For a second I was really mad at God and asked, Why?? Why would you do that to such a wonderful family who seems to do nothing but serve you?? Then I thought perhaps this was the way God decided to use Steven and his family. Even though it must be tremendously painful, I imagine that the Chapman family knows that this too is part of God's perfect plan and that somehow, through the death of this beautiful child, someone will be brought closer to God.

I gave my kids an extra tight hug this morning. I do long for God to use me in big and awesome ways, and selfishly, I hope that will be through serving dinners at a local shelter or through singing at a mission trip fundraiser......but I am ready if that call were to be bigger than that. My prayer is that God would use me in whatever way would glorify and honor Him.

Smiles,
Jennabee