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i am enjoying my long summer holidays!!!
but in fact i am not!! yeah,i am in my vacation,but i am doing a tutor job,being a part time english teacher for 5 high school students who are only 4 or 5 years younger than me.............
those kids if i can call them like this,come to my home every other day,and i teach them english,actually help them with their english study.
i've been like to be a teacher since the time i can remember,i love kids and i always have new ideas of how to teach,and i always want to do sth for the society.................but these days when i am doing this job,i find i dont like it at all,i dont know why,maybe bcoz it is holiday?? the students study hard,but they are sooooo poor at english that i find it hard to find an effecient way to help them and all the english study stuff that i can find are all difficult for them...........oh,my god,i need a professional teacher to tell me how to deal with it?? whenever i asked them to tell me sth in english,they became totally silent,that really made me feel embarrassed..........and the two hours every day is the most dark moment of the day,i have to keep speaking and asking and worrying if i am understood and if i am satisfied....................oh,my god i hate that
of course another important reason that i dont like it is that's a job mom found for me........well i do thank mom for that,but i am really fed up with going the way others decide for me,i want to be the leader of myself.............recalling my short life,it seems all the things have already arranged well by parents,and i am always obeying,i even start to hope i can be a little rebellious....................i just have missed so much exciting things that people of my age have enjoyed.......................
the only happiness from the terrible job is the payment,i am not a person who runs for money,but i do need it,my family is not rich,and i always feel the responsibility for it,i want to help parents,i want to give them a better life.and i want to have enough money to pursue my dream---step on every cornor of the warm land
i am going to prepare for tomorrow's class............hope i can help them
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Posted by nina880224 on 2008-07-15 08:02:44 | Rating: | Views: 29
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